* Mood: Distressed
* Listening to: Blinding - Florence and the Machine
* Reading: Thirst No. 3 - Christopher Pike
* Watching: my life change
* Eating: Banana Walnut Muffins
* Drinking: Coke
Hello beautiful dA family!
I have missed you all (equally and without holding back) and hope that you are all having a very happy holiday wherever you may be.
I've been working like a mad woman for the past couple of weeks. I've barely had time to breathe, let alone do some stuff on here. Plus all of my inspiration seems to have fled in the face of hideous reality.
I am depressed, I am angry, I am frightened and I am stressed to the limit.
And there is nothing I can do about it. Isn't that fun?
I know, I know. I should not worry about things I cannot change because I cannot change them. I can only stand back and allow them to happen because there is nothing I can do. But I hate feeling so fucking helpless all the time.
I keep feeling like I was chosen for something, like I am meant to be here (or there, depending). But everything around me spins out of my control and all I can do is clench my fists and bite my tongue and wish it would end.
Is there no justice? Is there no truth? Is there no true love?
I don't understand. Maybe I never will. Even though life is never fair, this seems far more unfair than is necessary.
And I keep waiting for divine revelation to drop into my lap from a God I no longer believe in and no other seems to care that I exist. Did they ever care to begin with?
So I listen to my music. I have been on a Katy Perry and a Florence and the Machine kick for the last couple weeks. I wish I had a Florence and the Machine cd (particularly "Lungs"), because I am addicted to "Blinding" and "Girl with One Eye"
Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state
A tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realise that it was you who held me under
Felt it in my fists, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids
Shaking through my skull, through my spine and down through my
ribs
No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world
And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
'Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn wide open
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken
And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open
And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open
No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world
Snow White's stitching up the circuit boards
Silence slipping through the hidden door
Snow White's Stitching up your circuit board
No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong world
Snow White's stitching up the circuit boards
Silence slipping through the hidden door
Snow White's Stitching up your circuit board
Silence slipping through the hidden door
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Transitions (dA)
Wed Dec 1, 2010, 3:08 PM
* Mood: Apprehensive
* Listening to: Operator - Shiloh
* Reading: Dexter is Delicious - Jeff Lindsay
* Watching: my life change
* Playing: the Transition Game
* Eating: A Hamburger (Soon that is)
* Drinking: Coke
In life there are always transitions.
Moments change and love is either won or lost in the adventure. We discover things that we didn't know, we learn things we didn't want to know. We crave truth or a lie, a soft touch and we release a sigh.
This is a transition.
I am changing, we are changing. Life is a river, constantly moving and constantly changing. It may not always end the way I want it to, but the transition is there none the less.
Dear God,
Just because we aren't on the best of terms is no reason to be a jerk.
Just Sayin'.
Sarai
* Mood: Apprehensive
* Listening to: Operator - Shiloh
* Reading: Dexter is Delicious - Jeff Lindsay
* Watching: my life change
* Playing: the Transition Game
* Eating: A Hamburger (Soon that is)
* Drinking: Coke
In life there are always transitions.
Moments change and love is either won or lost in the adventure. We discover things that we didn't know, we learn things we didn't want to know. We crave truth or a lie, a soft touch and we release a sigh.
This is a transition.
I am changing, we are changing. Life is a river, constantly moving and constantly changing. It may not always end the way I want it to, but the transition is there none the less.
Dear God,
Just because we aren't on the best of terms is no reason to be a jerk.
Just Sayin'.
Sarai
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
D.C., a Pearl and other things. (dA)
* Mood: Content
* Listening to: You Spin Me Round - Dead or Alive
* Reading: Erica's IM
* Watching: You Spin Me Round - Dead or Alive
* Playing: the waiting game
* Drinking: Coke, no Ice. :D
Hello!
Long time, no write! I have been working a lot recently and not been able to get on here to do anything!
So, I went to D.C.
I didn't get to really do anything I wanted, other than get my picture taken by the monuments, which I will post shortly. I missed out on the rally, I didn't get to see "Rocky Horror Picture Show", I missed Eddie Izzard (who is like my fav comedian EVER!) and my friend got really sick and was throwing up.
Other than that though, it was good. :D
On Friday (last week) Donnie gave me a real engagement ring! The one we were using was the one he made for our first Anniversary (August 5th, 2009)and it is falling apart because it needs to be soddered (I'm not sure how to spell that). So he bought me a pearl engagement ring with little maxite (I think) stones around it. It is a BIG pearl too. And very real!! It is heavy on my finger, but I love it!
He even got down on one knee when he gave it to me! I'll try to get pictures of it up soon so you can all admire his good taste (lol).
Anyway, I have been working my proverbial ass off recently. I love, love, LOVE my job. And today I got two compliments, extra hours, and hit on by a cute pastor. lol.
Don't worry, Donnie is my man all the way, but it is nice to be hit on by cute guys. Just saying.
Not to mention we have candles at work that smell like cologne... I think I need to get some so my house always smells like sexy men. :giggle:
Anyway, that is all for now. I'm off for the next adventure. God only knows what it will be!
Ta ta,
Sarai
* Listening to: You Spin Me Round - Dead or Alive
* Reading: Erica's IM
* Watching: You Spin Me Round - Dead or Alive
* Playing: the waiting game
* Drinking: Coke, no Ice. :D
Hello!
Long time, no write! I have been working a lot recently and not been able to get on here to do anything!
So, I went to D.C.
I didn't get to really do anything I wanted, other than get my picture taken by the monuments, which I will post shortly. I missed out on the rally, I didn't get to see "Rocky Horror Picture Show", I missed Eddie Izzard (who is like my fav comedian EVER!) and my friend got really sick and was throwing up.
Other than that though, it was good. :D
On Friday (last week) Donnie gave me a real engagement ring! The one we were using was the one he made for our first Anniversary (August 5th, 2009)and it is falling apart because it needs to be soddered (I'm not sure how to spell that). So he bought me a pearl engagement ring with little maxite (I think) stones around it. It is a BIG pearl too. And very real!! It is heavy on my finger, but I love it!
He even got down on one knee when he gave it to me! I'll try to get pictures of it up soon so you can all admire his good taste (lol).
Anyway, I have been working my proverbial ass off recently. I love, love, LOVE my job. And today I got two compliments, extra hours, and hit on by a cute pastor. lol.
Don't worry, Donnie is my man all the way, but it is nice to be hit on by cute guys. Just saying.
Not to mention we have candles at work that smell like cologne... I think I need to get some so my house always smells like sexy men. :giggle:
Anyway, that is all for now. I'm off for the next adventure. God only knows what it will be!
Ta ta,
Sarai
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Finally (dA)
* Mood: Insecure
* Listening to: Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
As of Monday (last week) I have a job at Kohl's Department Store!!
And yesterday Donnie turned 22 (but I'll continue to pretend that he is older than me, :giggle: ).
On Friday I'm going to Washington D.C. for a last hooray before I have to be an adult. I'm very excited!
Everything is going fairly well over all. I have a job, a wonderful fiance/husband, and I am going on a trip to a place I've never been.
So why am I so depressed?
* Listening to: Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
As of Monday (last week) I have a job at Kohl's Department Store!!
And yesterday Donnie turned 22 (but I'll continue to pretend that he is older than me, :giggle: ).
On Friday I'm going to Washington D.C. for a last hooray before I have to be an adult. I'm very excited!
Everything is going fairly well over all. I have a job, a wonderful fiance/husband, and I am going on a trip to a place I've never been.
So why am I so depressed?
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Long Time No Blog
Hey Everyone out in MySpace land.
Yeah, I've not written in a while. I've been really depressed. I do this. I'm sure you noticed that there have been no new episodes of the crazy show or new blogs or the day. And even now I'm not working on it. I need to log in there though.
This is just a quick note to say I'm alive. And that I still exist.
This is also to say that I think its time. I don't know what it is time for, but it is time. I know it is. I feel it in my bones.
I'll let you know when I figure it out.
May the Darkness be Merciful.
Sarai
Yeah, I've not written in a while. I've been really depressed. I do this. I'm sure you noticed that there have been no new episodes of the crazy show or new blogs or the day. And even now I'm not working on it. I need to log in there though.
This is just a quick note to say I'm alive. And that I still exist.
This is also to say that I think its time. I don't know what it is time for, but it is time. I know it is. I feel it in my bones.
I'll let you know when I figure it out.
May the Darkness be Merciful.
Sarai
22 (dA)
* Mood: Optimism
* Listening to: Fawny type. :D
* Reading: Dangerous Liasons
* Playing: Oblivion
For those of you who aren't in the know, I'm turning 22 on Saturday. I wish you guys lived near me so you could come to the the little party I'm apparently having. O.O
Anyway, Donnie has planned everything. I have no IDEA what is going on either. Isn't he sweet?
I DO know that I get cheesecake (with caramel swirls and chocolate drizzle) and that some of my friends are coming over around 7 or 7:30. That is it though. :shrug:
Also, I have no idea what Fawn has planned.
Anyway, I didn't get the job at the dry cleaners, got paid for my time, but that was it. Oh well.
And right now I'm writing an erotic story (which won't get posted on here, because I'm not about to expose my younger friends to my twisted mind) and a little story about a dream Fawn had, and something else, but right this second I don't even remember what it is! lol. :D
All for now :D
PS (NOT SUITABLE FOR CHILDREN UNDER 18) [https://secure.peta.org/site/Advocacy?cmd=display&page=UserAction&id=2711] This is what is happening in a circus, please send this to everyone you can so that maybe we can get it to stop.
* Listening to: Fawny type. :D
* Reading: Dangerous Liasons
* Playing: Oblivion
For those of you who aren't in the know, I'm turning 22 on Saturday. I wish you guys lived near me so you could come to the the little party I'm apparently having. O.O
Anyway, Donnie has planned everything. I have no IDEA what is going on either. Isn't he sweet?
I DO know that I get cheesecake (with caramel swirls and chocolate drizzle) and that some of my friends are coming over around 7 or 7:30. That is it though. :shrug:
Also, I have no idea what Fawn has planned.
Anyway, I didn't get the job at the dry cleaners, got paid for my time, but that was it. Oh well.
And right now I'm writing an erotic story (which won't get posted on here, because I'm not about to expose my younger friends to my twisted mind) and a little story about a dream Fawn had, and something else, but right this second I don't even remember what it is! lol. :D
All for now :D
PS (NOT SUITABLE FOR CHILDREN UNDER 18) [https://secure.peta.org/site/Advocacy?cmd=display&page=UserAction&id=2711] This is what is happening in a circus, please send this to everyone you can so that maybe we can get it to stop.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Carrots the size of Your Forearm. (dA)
* Mood: Confused
* Listening to: Jenny Says - Cowboy Mouth
* Reading: The Invisible Ring
* Playing: Oblivion
So I have a job, sort of. I am in training at a place called Crosstown Cleaners and it is actually a Dry cleaners, Laundry Mat, Laundry Service, Delivery service and Korean Cafe. So my first day of training was on Sunday and I think I did fairly well.
I clean out the lint traps and I get to keep all the change I find! I made a whole 83 cents on Sunday! :D Also I peel and shred these fucking HUGE carrots. Like, literally the size of my forearm, except a little shorter. It was crazy.
Apparently they ONLY have these huge carrots in Korea. They don't have the normal sized carrots that we have here or baby carrots. The girl I was working with said its because they don't use carrots for Snacking. They just use them to cook. So they need a lot since one of their main dishes (Kim Bob) is mostly carrots. :shrug: Learning new things is fun.
Have some work today. 2 to 7. Luckily all the training is paid, so even if I don't get the job, I still get paid for my time. Nice huh?
Also I might be driving the delivery van, which makes me a little nervous, I've never driven a van like the one they have and I don't know exactly where I'm going, which is why I should be getting directions, but I don't know where to start! *sigh*
The book store I've been working at for the past 4 years is closing at the end of the month. I'm set to work the last day we are open. I am very sad about this actually. I don't know what I'll do with myself. But such is life. There are beginnings and endings and all of our endings are some sort of beginning.
And this weekend I am to going to see my godson and my friend Kendra. It is Corbin's second birthday and apparently he has the jump on the Terrible Twos. Poor Kendra. Poor me. :giggle: It should be fine.
Love to you all.
Sarai.
* Listening to: Jenny Says - Cowboy Mouth
* Reading: The Invisible Ring
* Playing: Oblivion
So I have a job, sort of. I am in training at a place called Crosstown Cleaners and it is actually a Dry cleaners, Laundry Mat, Laundry Service, Delivery service and Korean Cafe. So my first day of training was on Sunday and I think I did fairly well.
I clean out the lint traps and I get to keep all the change I find! I made a whole 83 cents on Sunday! :D Also I peel and shred these fucking HUGE carrots. Like, literally the size of my forearm, except a little shorter. It was crazy.
Apparently they ONLY have these huge carrots in Korea. They don't have the normal sized carrots that we have here or baby carrots. The girl I was working with said its because they don't use carrots for Snacking. They just use them to cook. So they need a lot since one of their main dishes (Kim Bob) is mostly carrots. :shrug: Learning new things is fun.
Have some work today. 2 to 7. Luckily all the training is paid, so even if I don't get the job, I still get paid for my time. Nice huh?
Also I might be driving the delivery van, which makes me a little nervous, I've never driven a van like the one they have and I don't know exactly where I'm going, which is why I should be getting directions, but I don't know where to start! *sigh*
The book store I've been working at for the past 4 years is closing at the end of the month. I'm set to work the last day we are open. I am very sad about this actually. I don't know what I'll do with myself. But such is life. There are beginnings and endings and all of our endings are some sort of beginning.
And this weekend I am to going to see my godson and my friend Kendra. It is Corbin's second birthday and apparently he has the jump on the Terrible Twos. Poor Kendra. Poor me. :giggle: It should be fine.
Love to you all.
Sarai.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Passed (dA)
* Mood: Cheerful
* Listening to: emi hinouchi - kataomoi
* Reading: The Pillars of the World
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
On Thursday I found out the results of my GED test. And I passed! :D
Language Arts/Reading - 800 out of 800 (Perfect score)!!
Other than that, the usual. Have a phone now, but no long distance. No internet, still using the library, but we're going to be okay. :D
* Listening to: emi hinouchi - kataomoi
* Reading: The Pillars of the World
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
On Thursday I found out the results of my GED test. And I passed! :D
Language Arts/Reading - 800 out of 800 (Perfect score)!!
Other than that, the usual. Have a phone now, but no long distance. No internet, still using the library, but we're going to be okay. :D
Thursday, July 29, 2010
The Moving and over 9,000 views (dA)
* Mood: Tense
* Listening to: Brand New Lover - Dead or Alive
* Reading: Love Letters of Great Women
* Watching: My world get turned upside down
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
So, first off, I want to say thank you to everyone who has looked at my page so that my views have crested 9,000. ^^ It is greatly appreciated and expect some new stuff soon. ^^
Moving: SUCKS.
Just saying. lol. We got the washing machine, the dryer and almost all the dirty clothes moved out today. All the food is packed up, except what is in the fridge. I started cleaning out the bathroom, but it is a slow process since I can't get on my knees to scrub. But, its all good. I have a mop. Yep, A MOP. :D
I've been trying to throw stuff out that we no longer need. Like Fels Naptha Bar Laundry Soap. Yep, a BAR of laundry soap. That I've had, inexplicably, for 6 years.
Donnie and I might have a place to move, but I need to look into it a bit more. Its only a little way from where I crashed my car, across from the cemetery. That thought alone stops my heart in my chest and makes it do funny flips. It saddens me that a place that used to comfort me now provokes such anguish and terror inside of me.
It is a one bedroom house. Only $425 a month (Water and Sewage included). That isn't bad for a place in this town. They usually jack all the prices up so they can drain the College students.
I need to finish cleaning the bathroom, but I keep putting it off because I don't want to move. Well, I want to move, but not right back in with my mom. And I don't mind her new husband, but I don't know him that well. I mean, hell, Donnie knows him better than I do!
Anyway, I'm going to stop my bitchin' and get to work. We have to be out by tomorrow night
Love,
Sarai
* Listening to: Brand New Lover - Dead or Alive
* Reading: Love Letters of Great Women
* Watching: My world get turned upside down
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
So, first off, I want to say thank you to everyone who has looked at my page so that my views have crested 9,000. ^^ It is greatly appreciated and expect some new stuff soon. ^^
Moving: SUCKS.
Just saying. lol. We got the washing machine, the dryer and almost all the dirty clothes moved out today. All the food is packed up, except what is in the fridge. I started cleaning out the bathroom, but it is a slow process since I can't get on my knees to scrub. But, its all good. I have a mop. Yep, A MOP. :D
I've been trying to throw stuff out that we no longer need. Like Fels Naptha Bar Laundry Soap. Yep, a BAR of laundry soap. That I've had, inexplicably, for 6 years.
Donnie and I might have a place to move, but I need to look into it a bit more. Its only a little way from where I crashed my car, across from the cemetery. That thought alone stops my heart in my chest and makes it do funny flips. It saddens me that a place that used to comfort me now provokes such anguish and terror inside of me.
It is a one bedroom house. Only $425 a month (Water and Sewage included). That isn't bad for a place in this town. They usually jack all the prices up so they can drain the College students.
I need to finish cleaning the bathroom, but I keep putting it off because I don't want to move. Well, I want to move, but not right back in with my mom. And I don't mind her new husband, but I don't know him that well. I mean, hell, Donnie knows him better than I do!
Anyway, I'm going to stop my bitchin' and get to work. We have to be out by tomorrow night
Love,
Sarai
Monday, July 26, 2010
Moving to the Sticks (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Playing with Fire - Paula Seling & Ovi
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
So this week begins moving in with my mom and her new husband. Still have yet to find a job. But I applied at Target and Murphy's Oil Station today, so I'll give a call tomorrow. I'm also going to call Macy's and pester them until they give me a job.
I'm on a Eurovision kick right now. ^^
I burst the blood vessels in my face and eyes today. That was great fun. I was working for my Aunt Peggy (for the first time in a while) and I went to take my inhaler (because I'm asthmatic) and apparently there was something in it. So when I breathed in I inhaled whatever it was. I think it was a bug. XP
Anyway, I coughed (almost hacked up a lung or three) and gagged. I tried to throw up to get it out, but it wouldn't come (gross I know). In the end I chugged two bottles of water to get whatever it was to go down. My throat still hurts and it looks like I have blood freckles and like my eyes are bleeding. Luckily most of the burst vessels in my eyes are beneath my eyelids so I don't look demonic like I did this one time... But that is a story for another day.
Good News: I got to work for my Aunt Peggy today. I feel accomplished.
Bad News: I burst the blood vessels in my face and gave myself a stellar headache.
Good News: We visited with Donnie's Grandma.
Bad News: Donnie has been teasing me about my "polka dots" since he came to pick me up.
Good News: There was a gay guy at Barnes and Noble who totally went "rawr" with the hand motion and EVERYTHING! God that was fucking hysterical.
Bad News: I think I'm going to have to scrap my Cupcake idea. My Kitchen isn't state approved. This makes me sad faced :( See, sad faced!
Good News: I love Dragon Age Origins.
That is all.
Sarai
* Listening to: Playing with Fire - Paula Seling & Ovi
* Playing: Dragon Age Origins
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
So this week begins moving in with my mom and her new husband. Still have yet to find a job. But I applied at Target and Murphy's Oil Station today, so I'll give a call tomorrow. I'm also going to call Macy's and pester them until they give me a job.
I'm on a Eurovision kick right now. ^^
I burst the blood vessels in my face and eyes today. That was great fun. I was working for my Aunt Peggy (for the first time in a while) and I went to take my inhaler (because I'm asthmatic) and apparently there was something in it. So when I breathed in I inhaled whatever it was. I think it was a bug. XP
Anyway, I coughed (almost hacked up a lung or three) and gagged. I tried to throw up to get it out, but it wouldn't come (gross I know). In the end I chugged two bottles of water to get whatever it was to go down. My throat still hurts and it looks like I have blood freckles and like my eyes are bleeding. Luckily most of the burst vessels in my eyes are beneath my eyelids so I don't look demonic like I did this one time... But that is a story for another day.
Good News: I got to work for my Aunt Peggy today. I feel accomplished.
Bad News: I burst the blood vessels in my face and gave myself a stellar headache.
Good News: We visited with Donnie's Grandma.
Bad News: Donnie has been teasing me about my "polka dots" since he came to pick me up.
Good News: There was a gay guy at Barnes and Noble who totally went "rawr" with the hand motion and EVERYTHING! God that was fucking hysterical.
Bad News: I think I'm going to have to scrap my Cupcake idea. My Kitchen isn't state approved. This makes me sad faced :( See, sad faced!
Good News: I love Dragon Age Origins.
That is all.
Sarai
Friday, July 23, 2010
No Job. (dA)
* Mood: Rejected
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I did not get hired for Macy's. Which sucks bollocks, but oh well. Back to the drawing board.
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I did not get hired for Macy's. Which sucks bollocks, but oh well. Back to the drawing board.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
The Point
Is there a point to living? A point to being alive? I don't think there is.
I'm listening to 21 Guns by Green Day. Getting ready to go in for an interview. I want this job so bad. I need a job so bad. Since the depression of my last job has faded a little, I think I can survive.
What is the point of even writing this? No one reads my blogs anymore anyway.
I'm listening to 21 Guns by Green Day. Getting ready to go in for an interview. I want this job so bad. I need a job so bad. Since the depression of my last job has faded a little, I think I can survive.
What is the point of even writing this? No one reads my blogs anymore anyway.
Interview (dA)
* Mood: Insecure
* Listening to: How Do You Tell Someone - Cowboy Mouth
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
in a little less than 2 hours I have an interview at Macy's. I'm nervous and kind of procrastinating because of said nervousness. I need to get into the shower and get ready, but I want to listen to 21 Guns by Green Day.
Still wanting to do the cupcake business. I have to finish figuring out all the details for it first. I think I need permits and such things before I can do it.
Anyway, no new poetry right now. Which I find depressing. I seem to have lost my mojo, baby. lol. Couldn't resist that bit.
Also, I need to exercise... I didn't end up doing it last night because I was feeling really under the weather. But today I plan on remedying that. The goal is to be skinny by the time I get married. Sound good? I thought so.
All for now lovelies, feel free to watch old episodes of Sarai's Crazy Show on YouTube and to look over my old poetry.
Din Sarai
* Listening to: How Do You Tell Someone - Cowboy Mouth
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
in a little less than 2 hours I have an interview at Macy's. I'm nervous and kind of procrastinating because of said nervousness. I need to get into the shower and get ready, but I want to listen to 21 Guns by Green Day.
Still wanting to do the cupcake business. I have to finish figuring out all the details for it first. I think I need permits and such things before I can do it.
Anyway, no new poetry right now. Which I find depressing. I seem to have lost my mojo, baby. lol. Couldn't resist that bit.
Also, I need to exercise... I didn't end up doing it last night because I was feeling really under the weather. But today I plan on remedying that. The goal is to be skinny by the time I get married. Sound good? I thought so.
All for now lovelies, feel free to watch old episodes of Sarai's Crazy Show on YouTube and to look over my old poetry.
Din Sarai
Monday, July 19, 2010
Cupcakes! (dA)
* Mood: Cheerful
* Watching: Spongebob Squarepants
* Eating: Pizza
So Sarai has had a brilliant idea! Yep, I'm thinking about starting a business selling cupcakes around Campus. Since I live in a college town.
I have gathered some Cupcake recipes from the net and I'm going to take a free starting a new business class online!
If you have any ideas or suggestions, feel free to comment!! I hope this works! :D
* Watching: Spongebob Squarepants
* Eating: Pizza
So Sarai has had a brilliant idea! Yep, I'm thinking about starting a business selling cupcakes around Campus. Since I live in a college town.
I have gathered some Cupcake recipes from the net and I'm going to take a free starting a new business class online!
If you have any ideas or suggestions, feel free to comment!! I hope this works! :D
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Skin. (dA)
* Mood: Approval
* Listening to: Frozen - Celldweller
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Drinking: Lemonade
So, I was re-reading my short story "Skin" and I realized that I totally love that particular piece. I think it is one of the best writings I've ever done... I am, dare I say it? Proud of myself for something! :O Tis, quite strange. Anyway, if you want to read it, feel free to go to the link
[http://undauntedifly.deviantart.com/art/Skin-132774348]
See? Link. ^^ Anyway, I really love my transitioning. And the fact that it caught several people off guard when they read it.
Anyway, that's all. I'm done being self-appreciative. I figure I'm allowed one day where I don't diss everything I do.
Have an interview with Macy's on Tuesday. Doc's appointment on Wednesday. Work at the Book Store on Thursday and Saturday. Saturday have a tattoo/b-day party for a friend of mine. Oh and Monday I have to go fill out applications in case I don't get hired on to Macy's on Tuesday.
Plus have to officially start getting everything packed up as we have to be out of the apartment by August 1st.
It is really late, I should go to bed. Good night everyone! More later!
* Listening to: Frozen - Celldweller
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Drinking: Lemonade
So, I was re-reading my short story "Skin" and I realized that I totally love that particular piece. I think it is one of the best writings I've ever done... I am, dare I say it? Proud of myself for something! :O Tis, quite strange. Anyway, if you want to read it, feel free to go to the link
[http://undauntedifly.deviantart.com/art/Skin-132774348]
See? Link. ^^ Anyway, I really love my transitioning. And the fact that it caught several people off guard when they read it.
Anyway, that's all. I'm done being self-appreciative. I figure I'm allowed one day where I don't diss everything I do.
Have an interview with Macy's on Tuesday. Doc's appointment on Wednesday. Work at the Book Store on Thursday and Saturday. Saturday have a tattoo/b-day party for a friend of mine. Oh and Monday I have to go fill out applications in case I don't get hired on to Macy's on Tuesday.
Plus have to officially start getting everything packed up as we have to be out of the apartment by August 1st.
It is really late, I should go to bed. Good night everyone! More later!
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Les Aventures de Sarai (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
* Reading: Perfume - Patrick Suskind
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Eating: Chicken Stew
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I don't know why I am writing, except that I wanted to.
I also don't know why I made the title of this "The Adventures of Sarai" in French. That is weird, but I wanted to. :shrug:
I have a story idea. It will be called "The Rose Goddess".
Fin.
* Listening to: Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
* Reading: Perfume - Patrick Suskind
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Eating: Chicken Stew
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I don't know why I am writing, except that I wanted to.
I also don't know why I made the title of this "The Adventures of Sarai" in French. That is weird, but I wanted to. :shrug:
I have a story idea. It will be called "The Rose Goddess".
Fin.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Exhaustion is Exhausting. (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Whataya Want from Me - Adam Lambert
* Reading: Perfume - Patrick Suskind
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Eating: Cinnamon Roll Pudding (it is AWESOME)
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
As some of you may or may not know (meaning only DaYog knows, because I've not been doing my duty by my viewers) I am in a play right now. Which is why I've not been doing much. I am physically and mentally drained.
Yesterday was our first performance and today we had two performances. We sucked. Reason? My director's insist on taking on children or people with deficiencies, providing ZERO structure and then giving us four weeks to put together a show. Cue shitty play.
Anyway, I have managed to hurt myself all three performances. And now I'm just exhausted and I'm mad because the reason I do these plays is because I enjoy acting and because it is relaxing. I enjoy it. This hasn't been a fun experience for me at all and after this I'm going on hiatus as far as acting is concerned. Which breaks my heart, but I can't do it.
I want a break from my life and acting used to be that, but it is pretty sad when my life is less stressful than the play.
I have begun my book review blog, by the way. Haven't monetized it yet, as I'm trying to build up entries and viewers. There is no point of monetizing if I don't have any traffic at all. So, if you feel like going there is a link somewhere (www.sarailovesbooks.blogspot.com) and I look forward to any comments you might have (since you can comment even if you don't have a blogspot).
And now I think I'm going to go to bed as my girl friend (who might become my girlfriend [see how I closed the space!]) hasn't shown up and I'm exhausted.
Cheers!
Sarai
* Listening to: Whataya Want from Me - Adam Lambert
* Reading: Perfume - Patrick Suskind
* Playing: Eurydice in Antigone
* Eating: Cinnamon Roll Pudding (it is AWESOME)
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
As some of you may or may not know (meaning only DaYog knows, because I've not been doing my duty by my viewers) I am in a play right now. Which is why I've not been doing much. I am physically and mentally drained.
Yesterday was our first performance and today we had two performances. We sucked. Reason? My director's insist on taking on children or people with deficiencies, providing ZERO structure and then giving us four weeks to put together a show. Cue shitty play.
Anyway, I have managed to hurt myself all three performances. And now I'm just exhausted and I'm mad because the reason I do these plays is because I enjoy acting and because it is relaxing. I enjoy it. This hasn't been a fun experience for me at all and after this I'm going on hiatus as far as acting is concerned. Which breaks my heart, but I can't do it.
I want a break from my life and acting used to be that, but it is pretty sad when my life is less stressful than the play.
I have begun my book review blog, by the way. Haven't monetized it yet, as I'm trying to build up entries and viewers. There is no point of monetizing if I don't have any traffic at all. So, if you feel like going there is a link somewhere (www.sarailovesbooks.blogspot.com) and I look forward to any comments you might have (since you can comment even if you don't have a blogspot).
And now I think I'm going to go to bed as my girl friend (who might become my girlfriend [see how I closed the space!]) hasn't shown up and I'm exhausted.
Cheers!
Sarai
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Monetization (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Damaged - Danity Kane
* Reading: Shalador's Lady - Anne Bishop
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I have decided to become a professional blogger.
There, I said it. I love blogging so much that I want to do it professionally. Unfortunately I don't quite know how to go about it. But I am bound and determined that I'm going to do it.
So, I started up a new blog. Because that is what several websites told me to pick a topic I could talk about all the time. So I picked books. So far I have 3 book reviews up and two that I'm working on.
You can find these reviews here: www.sarailovesbooks.blogspot.com
I need help however, if you have any book suggestions or suggestions on how to actually get my blog monetized or just a suggestion in general they would be greatly welcomed.
So, for the love of Sarai, please help me!!
Also, I love going to the gay bar... >.>
* Listening to: Damaged - Danity Kane
* Reading: Shalador's Lady - Anne Bishop
* Drinking: Coca-Cola
I have decided to become a professional blogger.
There, I said it. I love blogging so much that I want to do it professionally. Unfortunately I don't quite know how to go about it. But I am bound and determined that I'm going to do it.
So, I started up a new blog. Because that is what several websites told me to pick a topic I could talk about all the time. So I picked books. So far I have 3 book reviews up and two that I'm working on.
You can find these reviews here: www.sarailovesbooks.blogspot.com
I need help however, if you have any book suggestions or suggestions on how to actually get my blog monetized or just a suggestion in general they would be greatly welcomed.
So, for the love of Sarai, please help me!!
Also, I love going to the gay bar... >.>
Monday, June 14, 2010
New Stuff (dA)
* Mood: Questionable
* Listening to: Huo Tian Cua - Wang Lee Hom
* Reading: Geek Love - Katharine Dunn
* Watching: Mork and Mindy Season 1
* Playing: BioShock
* Eating: McDonald's
* Drinking: Watermelon Kiwi Kool-Aid
Aside from slicing my toe open on Saturday (that was fun) and battling the worst nightmare streak I've ever had (and I've had a LOT of bad nightmares and nightmare streaks) I'm just peachy. How is everyone else?
I've decided to try to turn some of the nightmares I've been having into stories, I just don't know how to go about it. I can't find a plot for these nightmares. They are random and graphic. More graphic than I can explain sometimes. :shrug:
I finished reading "Shutter Island" by Dennis Lehane and it was amazing. Obviously better than the movie, though the movie actually did a good job of following the plot. After I finished reading it, I watched the movie again (love Leo DiCaprio in that movie!!) and pointed out the discrepancies to Donnie (who enjoyed the movie too). He rated the movie at a 9.3 on a scale of 1 to 10. I would rate it just a little higher at 9.5.
Also, I wrote a new poem with a strange title, but I like it.
A few other things going on right now: Saw my ex-manager, Bruce, at Wal-Mart yesterday. He was flirting with me majorly. Donnie's insomnia is acting up. I started a rather disturbing book called "Geek Love" by Katharine Dunn (it is really good so far and I would suggest it to anyone who is a fan of disturbing literature. Of course, if you are on my profile reading this, you have to like disturbing literature a little anyway.) Still looking for a job, still being insane. Still working on getting my GED. Slow going, but worth it if I pass.
Oh yeah, the book store I work at (the little Christian one that barely pays anything because it has two employees, myself and another lady who only volunteers) is getting ready to close down. My friend, the owner, says she has been keeping the store open for 10 years and she wants to do other things with her time now. I hate for it to close, because it is about the only peace I get really, so I talked to my mom about possibly taking over, as Anita (the owner) is thinking about selling it to someone else. Wouldn't that be cool if I had a business of my own?! I think so. Anyway, it is a thought and I don't know what will happen yet. Either way we will find out by the end of the summer as Anita is going to close down in August or September if no one is interested in buying the business.
All for now. ^^ (Kind of feels like my old journals huh? When I used to write a lot more than I have been lately.)
Check out my latest poem "A Portrait of the Artist as a Flower" (Stupid dA cut the title down to "A Portrait of the Artist").
Peace and Anal Grease.
Sarai
* Listening to: Huo Tian Cua - Wang Lee Hom
* Reading: Geek Love - Katharine Dunn
* Watching: Mork and Mindy Season 1
* Playing: BioShock
* Eating: McDonald's
* Drinking: Watermelon Kiwi Kool-Aid
Aside from slicing my toe open on Saturday (that was fun) and battling the worst nightmare streak I've ever had (and I've had a LOT of bad nightmares and nightmare streaks) I'm just peachy. How is everyone else?
I've decided to try to turn some of the nightmares I've been having into stories, I just don't know how to go about it. I can't find a plot for these nightmares. They are random and graphic. More graphic than I can explain sometimes. :shrug:
I finished reading "Shutter Island" by Dennis Lehane and it was amazing. Obviously better than the movie, though the movie actually did a good job of following the plot. After I finished reading it, I watched the movie again (love Leo DiCaprio in that movie!!) and pointed out the discrepancies to Donnie (who enjoyed the movie too). He rated the movie at a 9.3 on a scale of 1 to 10. I would rate it just a little higher at 9.5.
Also, I wrote a new poem with a strange title, but I like it.
A few other things going on right now: Saw my ex-manager, Bruce, at Wal-Mart yesterday. He was flirting with me majorly. Donnie's insomnia is acting up. I started a rather disturbing book called "Geek Love" by Katharine Dunn (it is really good so far and I would suggest it to anyone who is a fan of disturbing literature. Of course, if you are on my profile reading this, you have to like disturbing literature a little anyway.) Still looking for a job, still being insane. Still working on getting my GED. Slow going, but worth it if I pass.
Oh yeah, the book store I work at (the little Christian one that barely pays anything because it has two employees, myself and another lady who only volunteers) is getting ready to close down. My friend, the owner, says she has been keeping the store open for 10 years and she wants to do other things with her time now. I hate for it to close, because it is about the only peace I get really, so I talked to my mom about possibly taking over, as Anita (the owner) is thinking about selling it to someone else. Wouldn't that be cool if I had a business of my own?! I think so. Anyway, it is a thought and I don't know what will happen yet. Either way we will find out by the end of the summer as Anita is going to close down in August or September if no one is interested in buying the business.
All for now. ^^ (Kind of feels like my old journals huh? When I used to write a lot more than I have been lately.)
Check out my latest poem "A Portrait of the Artist as a Flower" (Stupid dA cut the title down to "A Portrait of the Artist").
Peace and Anal Grease.
Sarai
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Unpleasant. (dA)
* Mood: Overwhelmed
* Listening to: Carry Out
* Reading: Shutter Island
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So my younger sister scared all of us when she randomly disappeared on Tuesday night. She was at the library with my mom and my mom fell asleep (she is prone to really bad headaches and had been up the night before with Hannah because she didn't go to bed until 8 am). When she woke up Hannah was gone. Thus began the search for her that ended with police being involved because she had been missing since 6pm and it was approaching 11pm. She was found at a friend's house at 11:30pm.
That was quite the excitement.
Not only that, but I managed to walk 3 miles (total) to my play practice, because my director assured me that I could take a bus and not have to walk to far. Note to self, never do this again as walking when you have a broken leg and are missing half your pelvis is a bad thing. Also wore blisters into the backs of my heels.
Today however, I am hoping will be better, because I am going to go with my mom to see my Aunt (who lives in Wisconsin). I get a mini vacation! :D
* Listening to: Carry Out
* Reading: Shutter Island
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So my younger sister scared all of us when she randomly disappeared on Tuesday night. She was at the library with my mom and my mom fell asleep (she is prone to really bad headaches and had been up the night before with Hannah because she didn't go to bed until 8 am). When she woke up Hannah was gone. Thus began the search for her that ended with police being involved because she had been missing since 6pm and it was approaching 11pm. She was found at a friend's house at 11:30pm.
That was quite the excitement.
Not only that, but I managed to walk 3 miles (total) to my play practice, because my director assured me that I could take a bus and not have to walk to far. Note to self, never do this again as walking when you have a broken leg and are missing half your pelvis is a bad thing. Also wore blisters into the backs of my heels.
Today however, I am hoping will be better, because I am going to go with my mom to see my Aunt (who lives in Wisconsin). I get a mini vacation! :D
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Causing a fair bit of stirring. (dA)
* Mood: Frustrated
* Listening to: Carry Out
* Reading: The Secrets of Jin-Shei
* Drinking: Strawberry Kool-Aid
Okay, as most of you know already, I am very outspoken about politics and things of that nature. I voted for Obama and am VERY proud of it, because it was the change I wanted. Granted everything is in slow motion right now, but I think all in all he is doing the best he can and that people who are constantly bashing him have no idea what they are talking about.
SO I posted some of my feelings on Facebook (yeah, I have a facebook and am fairly addicted) and it has caused quite the stir. It is the first time I've ever really said what I thought about the whole situation and I even used some profanity (which I don't do on Facebook because I have Christian people who are my friends and I also have younger children). So here is what I wrote and let me know what you think on this topic.
"Sarai Lillie is tired of people bashing our president. First off, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all (my mom taught me this). Secondly, you expect him to undo the 8 years of CRAP that Bush left us with in 2 years? Do you think you could do any better? I think not. So please, for the love of God, when you don't know what the hell you are talking about, SHUT YOUR MOUTH."
* Listening to: Carry Out
* Reading: The Secrets of Jin-Shei
* Drinking: Strawberry Kool-Aid
Okay, as most of you know already, I am very outspoken about politics and things of that nature. I voted for Obama and am VERY proud of it, because it was the change I wanted. Granted everything is in slow motion right now, but I think all in all he is doing the best he can and that people who are constantly bashing him have no idea what they are talking about.
SO I posted some of my feelings on Facebook (yeah, I have a facebook and am fairly addicted) and it has caused quite the stir. It is the first time I've ever really said what I thought about the whole situation and I even used some profanity (which I don't do on Facebook because I have Christian people who are my friends and I also have younger children). So here is what I wrote and let me know what you think on this topic.
"Sarai Lillie is tired of people bashing our president. First off, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it at all (my mom taught me this). Secondly, you expect him to undo the 8 years of CRAP that Bush left us with in 2 years? Do you think you could do any better? I think not. So please, for the love of God, when you don't know what the hell you are talking about, SHUT YOUR MOUTH."
Monday, May 24, 2010
All Finished :D (dA)
* Mood: Joy
* Listening to: Never Gonna Be Alone
* Reading: The Secrets of Jin-Shei
* Drinking: Strawberry Kool-Aid
Yep, I just finished my massive upload. ^^
This places the amount of poems I have on here at 391. Yep. 391 poems.
Anyway, let me know what you think and enjoy it. :D
Sarai
* Listening to: Never Gonna Be Alone
* Reading: The Secrets of Jin-Shei
* Drinking: Strawberry Kool-Aid
Yep, I just finished my massive upload. ^^
This places the amount of poems I have on here at 391. Yep. 391 poems.
Anyway, let me know what you think and enjoy it. :D
Sarai
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Massive Upload (again): Part II (dA)
* Mood: Overwhelmed
* Listening to: Good Girls Go Bad
* Drinking: Kool-Aid
So, if I had known that posting all my old poetry would have produced the outpouring of favorites and comments and what not, I would've done it a helluva lot sooner!
So I am almost finished with the massive upload and then it will be back to the norm of me posting every now and then when inspiration hits me with a two by four.
I am on poem 323 for dA. Since dA has practically everything I've ever written it is safe to say that I have over 300 poems. :giggle: And to think, I've still got 16 pages of poems to post!!
Will obviously post a journal alerting everyone to my completion of this momentous task and then everyone can tell me how much I rock (lol, just kidding, I know I don't).
All for now,
Sarai
* Listening to: Good Girls Go Bad
* Drinking: Kool-Aid
So, if I had known that posting all my old poetry would have produced the outpouring of favorites and comments and what not, I would've done it a helluva lot sooner!
So I am almost finished with the massive upload and then it will be back to the norm of me posting every now and then when inspiration hits me with a two by four.
I am on poem 323 for dA. Since dA has practically everything I've ever written it is safe to say that I have over 300 poems. :giggle: And to think, I've still got 16 pages of poems to post!!
Will obviously post a journal alerting everyone to my completion of this momentous task and then everyone can tell me how much I rock (lol, just kidding, I know I don't).
All for now,
Sarai
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Massive Upload (again) (dA)
* Mood: Lazy
* Reading: The Spanish Bride
* Drinking: Watermelon Kiwi Kool-Aid
So I am going to be uploading a bunch of poetry from when I first starting writing. Please be kind as most of it is old and I was young and not very good. I am still not very good, but I have improved.
That is all. ^^
* Reading: The Spanish Bride
* Drinking: Watermelon Kiwi Kool-Aid
So I am going to be uploading a bunch of poetry from when I first starting writing. Please be kind as most of it is old and I was young and not very good. I am still not very good, but I have improved.
That is all. ^^
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Fired. (dA)
* Mood: Shitty
* Listening to: Stay the Ride Alive - Gackt
* Reading: The Princess Bride
* Drinking: Pink and Yellow Lemonade (mixed)
So yesterday (the very end of my 1st REAL week of work) I was politely told that I had been terminated because of low DPH (donations per hour). I was led to believe that they wouldn't even BEGIN to think about firing me until my 3rd actual week of work (Technically it would be my fourth week because I had a training week last week, though I was told that wouldn't count either) and that as long as I was meeting my quota (an average of $30 an hour) by the end of the week that I was good.
No such luck.
So yesterday was a day of firsts. I got my first real pay check and I got fired.
I feel like a complete and utter failure, but I am trying to move on. I keep hoping if I listen to enough Gackt I'll feel better, and surprisingly he isn't helping. Stupid tele-fundraising job, stupid people who NEVER donate but wish you good luck and then HANG UP on you. I want a soda. *sigh*
* Listening to: Stay the Ride Alive - Gackt
* Reading: The Princess Bride
* Drinking: Pink and Yellow Lemonade (mixed)
So yesterday (the very end of my 1st REAL week of work) I was politely told that I had been terminated because of low DPH (donations per hour). I was led to believe that they wouldn't even BEGIN to think about firing me until my 3rd actual week of work (Technically it would be my fourth week because I had a training week last week, though I was told that wouldn't count either) and that as long as I was meeting my quota (an average of $30 an hour) by the end of the week that I was good.
No such luck.
So yesterday was a day of firsts. I got my first real pay check and I got fired.
I feel like a complete and utter failure, but I am trying to move on. I keep hoping if I listen to enough Gackt I'll feel better, and surprisingly he isn't helping. Stupid tele-fundraising job, stupid people who NEVER donate but wish you good luck and then HANG UP on you. I want a soda. *sigh*
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
My First Day
* Mood: Cheerful
* Reading: I am Legend
* Drinking: Crystal Light products
So my first day went well. Well, I think it went well. I didn't get any donations, but I talked to a few really nice people and I didn't get cussed out by anybody, so I call that a win. Don't you?
Keeping my fingers crossed for a pledge or two tonight. Last night I was calling in the Georgia, Rhode Island and Texas area, wonder where I'll be calling tonight!
w00t having a job!!
* Reading: I am Legend
* Drinking: Crystal Light products
So my first day went well. Well, I think it went well. I didn't get any donations, but I talked to a few really nice people and I didn't get cussed out by anybody, so I call that a win. Don't you?
Keeping my fingers crossed for a pledge or two tonight. Last night I was calling in the Georgia, Rhode Island and Texas area, wonder where I'll be calling tonight!
w00t having a job!!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
If I happen to call... (dA)
* Mood: Eager
* Listening to: my brother talk on the phone
* Reading: I am Legend
* Eating: Yogurt
* Drinking: Lemonade
I GOT A JOB!!!
I am SO UBER EXCITED!! You can have no idea how happy I am right now!! I have a job. A real, honest to God job!
I am working as a telefundraiser for the woman 2 woman breast cancer fund. If I call you, please don't hang up. You don't have to give me your money, just don't hang up on me. ^^ Please and thank you!!
Thank you whomever is out there answering prayers.
Thank you DaYog... since I know you will take credit for answering prayers anyway.
love,
Sarai
* Listening to: my brother talk on the phone
* Reading: I am Legend
* Eating: Yogurt
* Drinking: Lemonade
I GOT A JOB!!!
I am SO UBER EXCITED!! You can have no idea how happy I am right now!! I have a job. A real, honest to God job!
I am working as a telefundraiser for the woman 2 woman breast cancer fund. If I call you, please don't hang up. You don't have to give me your money, just don't hang up on me. ^^ Please and thank you!!
Thank you whomever is out there answering prayers.
Thank you DaYog... since I know you will take credit for answering prayers anyway.
love,
Sarai
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Speechless (dA)
* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: birds chirping, since my music stopped
* Reading: I am Legend
* Playing: FallOut 3
* Eating: chicken (kind of)
* Drinking: Gatorade
I have laryngitis. :(
It sucks. My throat is feels like it has broken glass and nails embedded in it. I am nauseous from the anti-biotic and I want to eat something, because I haven't eaten except for a reese's cup.
*sigh*
Anyway, nothing much going on. Applied at two different places for a job, I have an interview on Tuesday (so cross your fingers that I will be well enough for it!). I'm planning on taking over a friend's lease as he and his girlfriend are moving, if I get the jobs.
I hate being sick. And it isn't fair because I have been taking my vitamins regularly (especially the vitamin C that prevents illness), I've been eating right, not drinking soda (I gave it up, you know) or eating excessive amounts of sugar. I have even been doing light exercising! I guess it is all paying off in the long run because I have lost 46 pounds since I last weighed myself, but still. I thought avoiding what I've been avoiding was supposed to make you better, not make you worse!
All for now, going to probably lay down in a few.
* Listening to: birds chirping, since my music stopped
* Reading: I am Legend
* Playing: FallOut 3
* Eating: chicken (kind of)
* Drinking: Gatorade
I have laryngitis. :(
It sucks. My throat is feels like it has broken glass and nails embedded in it. I am nauseous from the anti-biotic and I want to eat something, because I haven't eaten except for a reese's cup.
*sigh*
Anyway, nothing much going on. Applied at two different places for a job, I have an interview on Tuesday (so cross your fingers that I will be well enough for it!). I'm planning on taking over a friend's lease as he and his girlfriend are moving, if I get the jobs.
I hate being sick. And it isn't fair because I have been taking my vitamins regularly (especially the vitamin C that prevents illness), I've been eating right, not drinking soda (I gave it up, you know) or eating excessive amounts of sugar. I have even been doing light exercising! I guess it is all paying off in the long run because I have lost 46 pounds since I last weighed myself, but still. I thought avoiding what I've been avoiding was supposed to make you better, not make you worse!
All for now, going to probably lay down in a few.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
A Date (dA)
* Mood: Excited
* Listening to: the voices in my head
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: Donnie play a video game
* Drinking: water
So, finally set a date for the wedding.
September 1st 2012 Sarai will finally take Donnie to be her lawfully wedded husband, for better or worse, richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, til death do they part.
And the good news, I'll get back from my honeymoon in time for my birthday!! w00t!! lol.
*hums the wedding theme*
* Listening to: the voices in my head
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: Donnie play a video game
* Drinking: water
So, finally set a date for the wedding.
September 1st 2012 Sarai will finally take Donnie to be her lawfully wedded husband, for better or worse, richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, til death do they part.
And the good news, I'll get back from my honeymoon in time for my birthday!! w00t!! lol.
*hums the wedding theme*
A Job. (dA)
* Mood: Confused
* Listening to: a video game
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: Donnie play said video game
* Drinking: water
SO, I have been looking for a job. And I realize how futile this effort may or may not be. I just am tired of feeling like dead weight, you know?
So I may have an opportunity with the National Breast Cancer Charity here. I would be a Tele-fundraiser. I'm going to pick up my application sometime soon, I hope.
You see, my mom has a boyfriend. And she is going to move in with said boyfriend in August. She has been spending all of her time with him so that I never see her and since I can't very well walk to the bus stop myself, I need her to take me.
Also I'd like to get my GED worked out, but now that I don't have a car, that has gotten all screwed up.
Anyway, that is your update.
* Listening to: a video game
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: Donnie play said video game
* Drinking: water
SO, I have been looking for a job. And I realize how futile this effort may or may not be. I just am tired of feeling like dead weight, you know?
So I may have an opportunity with the National Breast Cancer Charity here. I would be a Tele-fundraiser. I'm going to pick up my application sometime soon, I hope.
You see, my mom has a boyfriend. And she is going to move in with said boyfriend in August. She has been spending all of her time with him so that I never see her and since I can't very well walk to the bus stop myself, I need her to take me.
Also I'd like to get my GED worked out, but now that I don't have a car, that has gotten all screwed up.
Anyway, that is your update.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Back on the Horse (dA)
* Mood: Optimism
* Listening to: the tv
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: the baby watch SpongeBob
* Drinking: Grape Juice
I DROVE!!! I drove for the first time since my crash in October!! My friend Ryan is SO AWESOME!!! I lovers him!!
I was scared at first, but after a few minutes it was all routine. I went slow and was extra careful at every stop, but it was fun and for the first time in a long time I feel like I might actually get my life back on to the track it was on before.
Thank God for awesome friends like Ryan!
* Listening to: the tv
* Reading: I am Legend
* Watching: the baby watch SpongeBob
* Drinking: Grape Juice
I DROVE!!! I drove for the first time since my crash in October!! My friend Ryan is SO AWESOME!!! I lovers him!!
I was scared at first, but after a few minutes it was all routine. I went slow and was extra careful at every stop, but it was fun and for the first time in a long time I feel like I might actually get my life back on to the track it was on before.
Thank God for awesome friends like Ryan!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
And, now, I am a Cereal Girl. (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Cereal Girl - Sesame Street
* Reading: A Canticle for Lebowitz
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Drinking: Coca Cola
Nothing interesting going on really. I think I'm actually getting ready to go to bed, because I am tired. I borrowed a couple of books and movies from the library. No worries, only 2 books! No more buttering for my face, lol.
Uploaded some videos to the youtube the other day.
Posted some blogs.
Started some writing exercises and I'm probably going to post them in my gallery. I have some amusing paragraphs for my exercises.
All for now.
Sleepy Sarai is sleepy. GOOD NIGHT!
* Listening to: Cereal Girl - Sesame Street
* Reading: A Canticle for Lebowitz
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Drinking: Coca Cola
Nothing interesting going on really. I think I'm actually getting ready to go to bed, because I am tired. I borrowed a couple of books and movies from the library. No worries, only 2 books! No more buttering for my face, lol.
Uploaded some videos to the youtube the other day.
Posted some blogs.
Started some writing exercises and I'm probably going to post them in my gallery. I have some amusing paragraphs for my exercises.
All for now.
Sleepy Sarai is sleepy. GOOD NIGHT!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Just in Case (dA)
* Mood: Stuck
* Listening to: Jenny from the Block
* Reading: the stars, praying they know the answers
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Playing: the "I don't want to move" game
Well, just in case anyone cares, I have set the Crazy Show up with an online Blog. For those who hate MySpace you can check out this blog (which WILL have all the blogs from the MySpace) and I've even enabled it so that even if you DON'T have a BlogSpot you can leave a comment. It will leave it as Anonymous.
So here is the [http://www.saraicrazyblog.blogspot.com/]
I only have 30 of the original MySpace blogs up, so give it a few days so I can finish transferring. Then check it out and let me know what you think.
Sarai Out!
* Listening to: Jenny from the Block
* Reading: the stars, praying they know the answers
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Playing: the "I don't want to move" game
Well, just in case anyone cares, I have set the Crazy Show up with an online Blog. For those who hate MySpace you can check out this blog (which WILL have all the blogs from the MySpace) and I've even enabled it so that even if you DON'T have a BlogSpot you can leave a comment. It will leave it as Anonymous.
So here is the [http://www.saraicrazyblog.blogspot.com/]
I only have 30 of the original MySpace blogs up, so give it a few days so I can finish transferring. Then check it out and let me know what you think.
Sarai Out!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Shutter Island and other topics (dA)
* Mood: Stuck
* Listening to: Do You Remember - Jay Sean
* Reading: the stars, praying they know the answers
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Playing: the "I don't want to move" game
* Eating: Banana Cream Cupcakes
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So I watched "Shutter Island" today with my friend, Ryan. It was SO GOOD. Loved it. I suggest it to anyone who likes psychological thrillers.
If anyone knows where I can get a hold of an e-book version that isn't an audio book that would rock. I would prefer free if at all possible.
I am beginning to wonder if I have out grown DeviantArt. Or maybe it has outgrown me. I just don't feel like anyone understands what I am saying or feeling. Or REALLY looking at what I'm saying, digesting the metaphors.
I was told today that when I like my work that others will like it too. I don't quite feel like that is the case here on dA. :shrug: I could be wrong, I could be just being a little sniveling bitch. God only knows. I just know that a few of my friends on here have outgrown dA and I wonder if I have become like them.
Anyway, all for now... watch "Shutter Island" if you get a chance. I fucking loved that movie.
* Listening to: Do You Remember - Jay Sean
* Reading: the stars, praying they know the answers
* Watching: Donnie play games
* Playing: the "I don't want to move" game
* Eating: Banana Cream Cupcakes
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So I watched "Shutter Island" today with my friend, Ryan. It was SO GOOD. Loved it. I suggest it to anyone who likes psychological thrillers.
If anyone knows where I can get a hold of an e-book version that isn't an audio book that would rock. I would prefer free if at all possible.
I am beginning to wonder if I have out grown DeviantArt. Or maybe it has outgrown me. I just don't feel like anyone understands what I am saying or feeling. Or REALLY looking at what I'm saying, digesting the metaphors.
I was told today that when I like my work that others will like it too. I don't quite feel like that is the case here on dA. :shrug: I could be wrong, I could be just being a little sniveling bitch. God only knows. I just know that a few of my friends on here have outgrown dA and I wonder if I have become like them.
Anyway, all for now... watch "Shutter Island" if you get a chance. I fucking loved that movie.
Monday, March 1, 2010
BioShock 2
Current mood:aroused
So Arlin is AWESOME because he got me (and Donnie) BioShock 2. And let me tell you, it is AMAZING!! If you have played BioShock (the first one) You will DEFINITELY LOVE the second one.
Of course it is still quite thoroughly built on Ayn Rand's objectivism beliefs, there is a character whose beliefs completely contradict those objectivist beliefs and it leads to even more trouble than before. I freakin' love this game.
BioShock 2 is AMAZING. If you don't mind spoilers you should read the synopsis on Wikipedia. Also read the Wikipedia synopsis of the first one as well. ^^
So Arlin is AWESOME because he got me (and Donnie) BioShock 2. And let me tell you, it is AMAZING!! If you have played BioShock (the first one) You will DEFINITELY LOVE the second one.
Of course it is still quite thoroughly built on Ayn Rand's objectivism beliefs, there is a character whose beliefs completely contradict those objectivist beliefs and it leads to even more trouble than before. I freakin' love this game.
BioShock 2 is AMAZING. If you don't mind spoilers you should read the synopsis on Wikipedia. Also read the Wikipedia synopsis of the first one as well. ^^
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Vanilla Twilight (dA)
* Mood: Love Dazed
* Listening to: Vanilla Twilight
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Eating: Food...
* Drinking: Coke Zero
I guess the majorly depressing thing about Wedding planning (yeah, let's face it, I'm going to be talking about this until the day arrives) is realizing how many people aren't going to be there. For example, my Grandpa.
But there are so many great things about it too! For example I was able to upload a scan of my original concept for my dress! And I have figured out the Bridesmaid dresses, colors, Ring-bearer's tuxedo, Cake and a few other details.
I have a bunch of stuff yet to do. And to all those who seem to think planning is stupid at this point, You are supposed to have your dress paid for and ready a year in advance!! I'll be lucky to get it a few months before.
Also, I think it is a good thing to figure out costs NOW rather than a month or so before hand.
Anyway... nothing new going on right now. I wrote a new story, but have yet to post it. It feels really personal so I don't know yet.
Listening to music looking at LOLcats and watching a documentary which you should check out at [http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/divided/etc/view.html]
All for now
* Listening to: Vanilla Twilight
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Eating: Food...
* Drinking: Coke Zero
I guess the majorly depressing thing about Wedding planning (yeah, let's face it, I'm going to be talking about this until the day arrives) is realizing how many people aren't going to be there. For example, my Grandpa.
But there are so many great things about it too! For example I was able to upload a scan of my original concept for my dress! And I have figured out the Bridesmaid dresses, colors, Ring-bearer's tuxedo, Cake and a few other details.
I have a bunch of stuff yet to do. And to all those who seem to think planning is stupid at this point, You are supposed to have your dress paid for and ready a year in advance!! I'll be lucky to get it a few months before.
Also, I think it is a good thing to figure out costs NOW rather than a month or so before hand.
Anyway... nothing new going on right now. I wrote a new story, but have yet to post it. It feels really personal so I don't know yet.
Listening to music looking at LOLcats and watching a documentary which you should check out at [http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/divided/etc/view.html]
All for now
Monday, February 22, 2010
Wedding planning is a bit of a Bitch (dA)
* Mood: Love Dazed
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Drinking: Cranberry juice
Who knew that wedding planning could be so difficult?
I have a bunch of stuff already planned but apparently there were a BUNCH of things I didn't plan.
OH well. Working on it tomorrow.
Love,
Sarai
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Drinking: Cranberry juice
Who knew that wedding planning could be so difficult?
I have a bunch of stuff already planned but apparently there were a BUNCH of things I didn't plan.
OH well. Working on it tomorrow.
Love,
Sarai
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Sadie, Sadie Married Lady.
So, on this day (February 16th, 2010) my beautiful Boyfriend, Donnie, proposed.
Yep, that's right, PROPOSED!
It was around 4am, lol. I know. Really early. I was playing Oblivion (the Elder Scrolls) when Donnie walks up and lifts up his shirt. I glance over and written on his chest in sharpie is "Sarah, will you marry me?"
And, I said Yes.
Of course the wedding will not be until 2011 or 2012 as we are BROKE!
I'm thinking either September or May. Haven't decided yet. At least I know who will be my flower girl and ring bearer. And, if I hadn't already planned this wedding back in 2005, I might be a little more worried right now.
Thank God for pre-planning.
All for now!!
*hums "Sadie, Sadie Married Lady"*
Yep, that's right, PROPOSED!
It was around 4am, lol. I know. Really early. I was playing Oblivion (the Elder Scrolls) when Donnie walks up and lifts up his shirt. I glance over and written on his chest in sharpie is "Sarah, will you marry me?"
And, I said Yes.
Of course the wedding will not be until 2011 or 2012 as we are BROKE!
I'm thinking either September or May. Haven't decided yet. At least I know who will be my flower girl and ring bearer. And, if I hadn't already planned this wedding back in 2005, I might be a little more worried right now.
Thank God for pre-planning.
All for now!!
*hums "Sadie, Sadie Married Lady"*
Gone with the Wind *spoilers*
Current mood:accomplished
If I had my book there would be a lot more here, but as it is... I will quote only Rhett Butler. I love him... Clark Gable was a fine actor who I think really did the character of Rhett Butler justice.
Rhett Butler: With enough courage, you can do without a reputation. (Book and Movie)
Rhett Butler: How fickle is woman. (Book and Movie)
Rhett Butler: No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how. (Movie and Book)
Rhett Butler: You're so brutal to those who love you, Scarlett. You take their love and hold it over their heads like a whip. (Book)
One of the most amazing, influential and accurate historical novels of the time "Gone with the Wind" was written by Margaret Mitchell. It was her only book as she was killed in an accident at the age of 48. She was hit by a car while on her way to the Theatre. She won the Pulitzer Prize for "Gone with the Wind".
Vivien Leigh hated kissing Clark Gable. She said his breath stank. I would just give him a tic tac and go to town personally... *giggle*
Gone with the Wind was actually a very controversial movie. In it Scarlett is raped by Rhett (during their marriage), the slaves were "happy" to be slaves, and there was the Soldiers Hospital which was more gruesome than any movie previous. Also, it was the first movie created in Hollywood that had a cuss word. Rhett says "Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn" at the end.
The first scene to be shot was the burning of the Atlanta Depot, filmed on 10 December 1938. If there was a major mistake during the filming, the entire film might have been scrapped. They actually burned many old sets that needed to be cleared from the studio backlot, including sets from The Garden of Allah (1936) and the "Great Wall" set from King Kong (1933). The fire cost over $25,000, and yielded 113 minutes of footage. It was so intense that Culver City residents jammed the telephones lines, thinking MGM was burning down.
In the scene where Scarlett searches for Dr. Meade, making her way among 1,600 suffering and dying Confederate soldiers, to cut costs and still comply with a union rule that dictated the use of a certain percentage of extras in the cast, 800 dummies were scattered among 800 extras.
In the scene where Rhett pours Mammy a drink after the birth of Bonnie, for a joke during a take, Clark Gable actually poured alcohol instead of the usual tea into the decanter without Hattie McDaniel knowing it until she took a swig.
Margaret Mitchell wrote her novel between 1926 and 1929. In her early drafts, the main character was named "Pansy O'Hara" and the O'Hara plantation we know as Tara was called "Fountenoy Hall."
Clark Gable was so distressed over the requirement that he cry on film (during the scene where Melanie is comforting Rhett after Scarlett's miscarriage) that he almost quit. Olivia de Havilland convinced him to stay.
Hattie McDaniel became the first African-American to be nominated for, and win, an Academy Award.
To add to the publicity, fans were asked to vote for the actress they think should play Scarlett. Out of hundreds of ballots cast, Vivien Leigh got only one vote.
The fact that Hattie McDaniel would be unable to attend the premiere in racially segregated Atlanta annoyed Clark Gable so much that he threatened to boycott the premiere unless she could attend. He later relented when she convinced him to go.
Super macho director Victor Fleming wanted Scarlett, for at least once in the film, to look like his hunting buddy Clark Gable's type of woman. So, when wearing the stunning low-cut burgundy velvet dress with rhinestones that Scarlett wears to Ashley Wilkes' birthday party in the second half of the film, to achieve the desired cleavage for Fleming, Walter Plunkett had to tape Vivien Leigh's breasts together.
Vivien Leigh wasn't happy with Victor Fleming's brusque style after the careful nurturing she had enjoyed with George Cukor. When she asked him for direction in one scene, he told her "Ham it up". On another occasion when she asked for his constructive advice, he told her to "take the script and stick it up her royal British ass". After Cukor's departure, Leigh had to fight hard to keep the movie's Scarlett true to her view. Fleming's interpretation of her was that she was an out-and-out bitch as in the novel and that he had no desire to create any sympathy or insight for her.
Margaret Mitchell personally approved of Vivien Leigh's interpretation of Scarlett.
Three of the four principal actors, Leslie Howard, Vivien Leigh, and Clark Gable, died at relatively young ages. Olivia de Havilland is the only one who remains alive as of this writing (May 2008). Ironically, her character is the only one who dies in the film.
(This blog has been dedicated to Judy-Marie, my adorably adorkable PSM)
If I had my book there would be a lot more here, but as it is... I will quote only Rhett Butler. I love him... Clark Gable was a fine actor who I think really did the character of Rhett Butler justice.
Rhett Butler: With enough courage, you can do without a reputation. (Book and Movie)
Rhett Butler: How fickle is woman. (Book and Movie)
Rhett Butler: No, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed and often, and by someone who knows how. (Movie and Book)
Rhett Butler: You're so brutal to those who love you, Scarlett. You take their love and hold it over their heads like a whip. (Book)
One of the most amazing, influential and accurate historical novels of the time "Gone with the Wind" was written by Margaret Mitchell. It was her only book as she was killed in an accident at the age of 48. She was hit by a car while on her way to the Theatre. She won the Pulitzer Prize for "Gone with the Wind".
Vivien Leigh hated kissing Clark Gable. She said his breath stank. I would just give him a tic tac and go to town personally... *giggle*
Gone with the Wind was actually a very controversial movie. In it Scarlett is raped by Rhett (during their marriage), the slaves were "happy" to be slaves, and there was the Soldiers Hospital which was more gruesome than any movie previous. Also, it was the first movie created in Hollywood that had a cuss word. Rhett says "Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn" at the end.
The first scene to be shot was the burning of the Atlanta Depot, filmed on 10 December 1938. If there was a major mistake during the filming, the entire film might have been scrapped. They actually burned many old sets that needed to be cleared from the studio backlot, including sets from The Garden of Allah (1936) and the "Great Wall" set from King Kong (1933). The fire cost over $25,000, and yielded 113 minutes of footage. It was so intense that Culver City residents jammed the telephones lines, thinking MGM was burning down.
In the scene where Scarlett searches for Dr. Meade, making her way among 1,600 suffering and dying Confederate soldiers, to cut costs and still comply with a union rule that dictated the use of a certain percentage of extras in the cast, 800 dummies were scattered among 800 extras.
In the scene where Rhett pours Mammy a drink after the birth of Bonnie, for a joke during a take, Clark Gable actually poured alcohol instead of the usual tea into the decanter without Hattie McDaniel knowing it until she took a swig.
Margaret Mitchell wrote her novel between 1926 and 1929. In her early drafts, the main character was named "Pansy O'Hara" and the O'Hara plantation we know as Tara was called "Fountenoy Hall."
Clark Gable was so distressed over the requirement that he cry on film (during the scene where Melanie is comforting Rhett after Scarlett's miscarriage) that he almost quit. Olivia de Havilland convinced him to stay.
Hattie McDaniel became the first African-American to be nominated for, and win, an Academy Award.
To add to the publicity, fans were asked to vote for the actress they think should play Scarlett. Out of hundreds of ballots cast, Vivien Leigh got only one vote.
The fact that Hattie McDaniel would be unable to attend the premiere in racially segregated Atlanta annoyed Clark Gable so much that he threatened to boycott the premiere unless she could attend. He later relented when she convinced him to go.
Super macho director Victor Fleming wanted Scarlett, for at least once in the film, to look like his hunting buddy Clark Gable's type of woman. So, when wearing the stunning low-cut burgundy velvet dress with rhinestones that Scarlett wears to Ashley Wilkes' birthday party in the second half of the film, to achieve the desired cleavage for Fleming, Walter Plunkett had to tape Vivien Leigh's breasts together.
Vivien Leigh wasn't happy with Victor Fleming's brusque style after the careful nurturing she had enjoyed with George Cukor. When she asked him for direction in one scene, he told her "Ham it up". On another occasion when she asked for his constructive advice, he told her to "take the script and stick it up her royal British ass". After Cukor's departure, Leigh had to fight hard to keep the movie's Scarlett true to her view. Fleming's interpretation of her was that she was an out-and-out bitch as in the novel and that he had no desire to create any sympathy or insight for her.
Margaret Mitchell personally approved of Vivien Leigh's interpretation of Scarlett.
Three of the four principal actors, Leslie Howard, Vivien Leigh, and Clark Gable, died at relatively young ages. Olivia de Havilland is the only one who remains alive as of this writing (May 2008). Ironically, her character is the only one who dies in the film.
(This blog has been dedicated to Judy-Marie, my adorably adorkable PSM)
Engaged (dA)
* Mood: Love Dazed
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Drinking: Kool-Aid
Donnie proposed!! And I said YES!!
I am officially engaged!!! *SQUEE*
We are planning on a rather long engagement (as we are both INCREDIBLY broke), but I am incredibly happy none the less!
Soon to be Sadie Married Lady (if you get the reference you are my new best friend)
Sarai
* Reading: The Life and Death of Anne Boleyn by Eric Ives
* Drinking: Kool-Aid
Donnie proposed!! And I said YES!!
I am officially engaged!!! *SQUEE*
We are planning on a rather long engagement (as we are both INCREDIBLY broke), but I am incredibly happy none the less!
Soon to be Sadie Married Lady (if you get the reference you are my new best friend)
Sarai
Friday, February 12, 2010
Stumbling... (dA)
* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: Inside Out - Emmy Rossum
* Reading: Eleanor: Jewel of Acquitane
* Drinking: Whatever is available
I love Stumbling... that is "Stumble Upon". It is SO much fun.
I hate "Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightning Thief". Why? Because they fuck up Mythology. I love Mythology. It is ALMOST my religion. They fuck with it, I hate it.
I am addicted to "Inside Out" by Emmy Rossum. Check it out. You know you want too!!
Life is a random dance and I am here for the song.
I have determined that I will learn how to cook because I stumbled upon SO MANY awesome recipes and I must make them!!
Zombie Cupcakes... YUMMY!!
Ta!
* Listening to: Inside Out - Emmy Rossum
* Reading: Eleanor: Jewel of Acquitane
* Drinking: Whatever is available
I love Stumbling... that is "Stumble Upon". It is SO much fun.
I hate "Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightning Thief". Why? Because they fuck up Mythology. I love Mythology. It is ALMOST my religion. They fuck with it, I hate it.
I am addicted to "Inside Out" by Emmy Rossum. Check it out. You know you want too!!
Life is a random dance and I am here for the song.
I have determined that I will learn how to cook because I stumbled upon SO MANY awesome recipes and I must make them!!
Zombie Cupcakes... YUMMY!!
Ta!
Sunday, February 7, 2010
The Lovely Bones (dA)
* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: Stranger - Hilary Duff
* Reading: Nzingha Warrior Princess of the Ngola
* Watching: "The Lovely Bones"
* Playing: thoughts over and over
* Eating: Sorrow
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So, just finished watching "The Lovely Bones" with my Mom and Hannah. It was really good. I thought it would suck. I read the book when I was in High School so I thought they would screw it up like Hollywood usually does. Surprisingly it was pretty good. True, it wasn't completely true to the book, but it was good enough to make up for it. There are only two movies I've ever said that about before. "Gone with the Wind" and "To Kill A Mockingbird" so it is kind of a big deal.
How ever, I kept almost crying while watching. I still want to cry over it. Maybe it would do me some good. Anyway, off to read some books and think about happy thoughts...
I give "The Lovely Bones" a total of 8 stars out of 10.
* Listening to: Stranger - Hilary Duff
* Reading: Nzingha Warrior Princess of the Ngola
* Watching: "The Lovely Bones"
* Playing: thoughts over and over
* Eating: Sorrow
* Drinking: Ginger Ale
So, just finished watching "The Lovely Bones" with my Mom and Hannah. It was really good. I thought it would suck. I read the book when I was in High School so I thought they would screw it up like Hollywood usually does. Surprisingly it was pretty good. True, it wasn't completely true to the book, but it was good enough to make up for it. There are only two movies I've ever said that about before. "Gone with the Wind" and "To Kill A Mockingbird" so it is kind of a big deal.
How ever, I kept almost crying while watching. I still want to cry over it. Maybe it would do me some good. Anyway, off to read some books and think about happy thoughts...
I give "The Lovely Bones" a total of 8 stars out of 10.
According to Me
Current mood:cynical
I have realized that Life IS in fact Depressing. Why? :shrug: It is hard to explain, even to myself. You know what really bothers me?
People who have everything and insist on taking what little you have.
Went to the Library today. Got 6 books, Season 5 of Case Closed and Perhaps Love (A Chinese Musical that my Mom and I thought looked really good). I also got to have Starbucks (YUM!) and go to Barnes & Noble. I bought a book. As DaYog said, BIG SPENDER. lol.
I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that I may never drive again. I am also coming to terms with the fact that I am indeed a coward for this.
And I hate how much I keep talking about my accident, but unfortunately it is THE BIGGEST subject in my world right now. Its long term consequences will probably affect me for years to come (which in itself is quite depressing).
Callibre, I miss you darling, you seem to have been gone FOREVER.
I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. I think we might end up discussing when we plan on having my hip replacement surgery. I am NOT looking forward to that.
I plan on reading all day tomorrow. I have plenty of material. At least 2010 is turning into a good year for me inspiration wise considering how much I have done thus far.
I am tired of people who treat me like shit because I am not who they want me to be. According to them I am stupid and useless. But according to him I'm beautiful and intelligent and he can't stop thinking about me. So who cares about them?
I didn't catch a dirty joke my mom made today until a full minute afterward. That is sad considering that my mom has a tendency to be more naive than me.
Why can't I stop myself from thinking things I don't want to think about? Why do I do this to myself? ALL THE TIME?! I just want to kick myself in the head sometimes except I can't bend that way to do it. :sigh:
I am wearing a short, red, nightshirt with little black scottie dogs on them. The dogs are wearing pink bow ties with black polka dots. I find this amusing.
It is fucking cold here. I wish it was summer. I wish I was anywhere but here and anyone but myself. But how does one change into another?
I dreamt of him for the first time in a long time. And again he broke my heart. I keep telling myself to erase him from my thoughts, from my head. I can't seem to do it. Isn't that sad?
I am tired of people who pity me. I was in a wreck, no big deal. I am missing half of my pelvis, I'll never be able to have children, and my tibia is now a rod, no big deal. I don't want pity. I just want a shoulder to lean on, you know?
I am rambling. I am good at that. I wish it was a happier ramble through the forests of my mind.
I wish that I could fix everyone else's problems. I unfortunately lost my magic wand.
Did I come here alone? Or was I with somebody when I came in? I feel like I need a drink, some vodka straight. I could do it. I am not on any pain relievers. Haven't been since I came home on the 30th of December. I could drink if only I really wanted to. Of course drinking doesn't really cure anything does it?
Why do we grow up? Why do we long to be adults just so we can experience all the heart ache that comes with it? Why do we want what we can't have, what we shouldn't have? Why are we human?
I don't want to be like this.
I miss my father, I was dreaming about him the other night. He made me smile. I haven't seen him since I was 7 years old. Would he even recognize me?
Why did I have to be programmed to believe that I had to be married by now? Why do I feel guilty all the time for being with a man that I love more than my life? What is wrong with being in love?
Why can't I be happy for someone when they say they are getting married? It isn't a contest. I don't have to be first in the wedding races. I defined marriage for myself. That shouldn't be wrong.
I miss him. God, I miss him. And I said I wouldn't talk about him anymore, that I would forget him. I can't. Part of me doesn't want to I think.
Can regret be summed up in a few sentences? I suppose it can. But how do you sum up something that you can't even fathom on your own?
Again I have been rambling, I will stop. I just feel like I need to understand what I never will. And that, more than anything, hurts.
I have realized that Life IS in fact Depressing. Why? :shrug: It is hard to explain, even to myself. You know what really bothers me?
People who have everything and insist on taking what little you have.
Went to the Library today. Got 6 books, Season 5 of Case Closed and Perhaps Love (A Chinese Musical that my Mom and I thought looked really good). I also got to have Starbucks (YUM!) and go to Barnes & Noble. I bought a book. As DaYog said, BIG SPENDER. lol.
I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that I may never drive again. I am also coming to terms with the fact that I am indeed a coward for this.
And I hate how much I keep talking about my accident, but unfortunately it is THE BIGGEST subject in my world right now. Its long term consequences will probably affect me for years to come (which in itself is quite depressing).
Callibre, I miss you darling, you seem to have been gone FOREVER.
I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. I think we might end up discussing when we plan on having my hip replacement surgery. I am NOT looking forward to that.
I plan on reading all day tomorrow. I have plenty of material. At least 2010 is turning into a good year for me inspiration wise considering how much I have done thus far.
I am tired of people who treat me like shit because I am not who they want me to be. According to them I am stupid and useless. But according to him I'm beautiful and intelligent and he can't stop thinking about me. So who cares about them?
I didn't catch a dirty joke my mom made today until a full minute afterward. That is sad considering that my mom has a tendency to be more naive than me.
Why can't I stop myself from thinking things I don't want to think about? Why do I do this to myself? ALL THE TIME?! I just want to kick myself in the head sometimes except I can't bend that way to do it. :sigh:
I am wearing a short, red, nightshirt with little black scottie dogs on them. The dogs are wearing pink bow ties with black polka dots. I find this amusing.
It is fucking cold here. I wish it was summer. I wish I was anywhere but here and anyone but myself. But how does one change into another?
I dreamt of him for the first time in a long time. And again he broke my heart. I keep telling myself to erase him from my thoughts, from my head. I can't seem to do it. Isn't that sad?
I am tired of people who pity me. I was in a wreck, no big deal. I am missing half of my pelvis, I'll never be able to have children, and my tibia is now a rod, no big deal. I don't want pity. I just want a shoulder to lean on, you know?
I am rambling. I am good at that. I wish it was a happier ramble through the forests of my mind.
I wish that I could fix everyone else's problems. I unfortunately lost my magic wand.
Did I come here alone? Or was I with somebody when I came in? I feel like I need a drink, some vodka straight. I could do it. I am not on any pain relievers. Haven't been since I came home on the 30th of December. I could drink if only I really wanted to. Of course drinking doesn't really cure anything does it?
Why do we grow up? Why do we long to be adults just so we can experience all the heart ache that comes with it? Why do we want what we can't have, what we shouldn't have? Why are we human?
I don't want to be like this.
I miss my father, I was dreaming about him the other night. He made me smile. I haven't seen him since I was 7 years old. Would he even recognize me?
Why did I have to be programmed to believe that I had to be married by now? Why do I feel guilty all the time for being with a man that I love more than my life? What is wrong with being in love?
Why can't I be happy for someone when they say they are getting married? It isn't a contest. I don't have to be first in the wedding races. I defined marriage for myself. That shouldn't be wrong.
I miss him. God, I miss him. And I said I wouldn't talk about him anymore, that I would forget him. I can't. Part of me doesn't want to I think.
Can regret be summed up in a few sentences? I suppose it can. But how do you sum up something that you can't even fathom on your own?
Again I have been rambling, I will stop. I just feel like I need to understand what I never will. And that, more than anything, hurts.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Intuition (dA)
* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: According to You by Orianthi
* Reading: Thirst No. 2
* Drinking: Mt. Dew
I have realized that Life IS in fact Depressing. Why? :shrug: It is hard to explain, even to myself. You know what really bothers me?
People who have everything and insist on taking what little you have.
Went to the Library today. Got 6 books, Season 5 of Case Closed and Perhaps Love (A Chinese Musical that my Mom and I thought looked really good). I also got to have Starbucks (YUM!) and go to Barnes & Noble. I bought a book. As DaYog said, BIG SPENDER. lol.
I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that I may never drive again. I am also coming to terms with the fact that I am indeed a coward for this.
And I hate how much I keep talking about my accident, but unfortunately it is THE BIGGEST subject in my world right now. Its long term consequences will probably affect me for years to come (which in itself is quite depressing).
Callibre, I miss you darling, you seem to have been gone FOREVER.
I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. I think we might end up discussing when we plan on having my hip replacement surgery. I am NOT looking forward to that.
I plan on reading all day tomorrow. I have plenty of material. At least 2010 is turning into a good year for me inspiration wise considering how much I have done thus far.
I am tired of people who treat me like shit because I am not who they want me to be. According to them I am stupid and useless. But according to him I'm beautiful and intelligent and he can't stop thinking about me. So who cares about them?
I didn't catch a dirty joke my mom made today until a full minute afterward. That is sad considering that my mom has a tendency to be more naive than me.
Why can't I stop myself from thinking things I don't want to think about? Why do I do this to myself? ALL THE TIME?! I just want to kick myself in the head sometimes except I can't bend that way to do it. :sigh:
I am wearing a short, red, nightshirt with little black scottie dogs on them. The dogs are wearing pink bow ties with black polka dots. I find this amusing.
It is fucking cold here. I wish it was summer. I wish I was anywhere but here and anyone but myself. But how does one change into another?
I dreamt of him for the first time in a long time. And again he broke my heart. I keep telling myself to erase him from my thoughts, from my head. I can't seem to do it. Isn't that sad?
I am tired of people who pity me. I was in a wreck, no big deal. I am missing half of my pelvis, I'll never be able to have children, and my tibia is now a rod, no big deal. I don't want pity. I just want a shoulder to lean on, you know?
I am rambling. I am good at that. I wish it was a happier ramble through the forests of my mind.
I wish that I could fix everyone else's problems. I unfortunately lost my magic wand.
Did I come here alone? Or was I with somebody when I came in? I feel like I need a drink, some vodka straight. I could do it. I am not on any pain relievers. Haven't been since I came home on the 30th of December. I could drink if only I really wanted to. Of course drinking doesn't really cure anything does it?
Why do we grow up? Why do we long to be adults just so we can experience all the heart ache that comes with it? Why do we want what we can't have, what we shouldn't have? Why are we human?
I don't want to be like this.
I miss my father, I was dreaming about him the other night. He made me smile. I haven't seen him since I was 7 years old. Would he even recognize me?
Why did I have to be programmed to believe that I had to be married by now? Why do I feel guilty all the time for being with a man that I love more than my life? What is wrong with being in love?
Why can't I be happy for someone when they say they are getting married? It isn't a contest. I don't have to be first in the wedding races. I defined marriage for myself. That shouldn't be wrong.
I miss him. God, I miss him. And I said I wouldn't talk about him anymore, that I would forget him. I can't. Part of me doesn't want to I think.
Can regret be summed up in a few sentences? I suppose it can. But how do you sum up something that you can't even fathom on your own?
Again I have been rambling, I will stop. I just feel like I need to understand what I never will. And that, more than anything, hurts.
* Listening to: According to You by Orianthi
* Reading: Thirst No. 2
* Drinking: Mt. Dew
I have realized that Life IS in fact Depressing. Why? :shrug: It is hard to explain, even to myself. You know what really bothers me?
People who have everything and insist on taking what little you have.
Went to the Library today. Got 6 books, Season 5 of Case Closed and Perhaps Love (A Chinese Musical that my Mom and I thought looked really good). I also got to have Starbucks (YUM!) and go to Barnes & Noble. I bought a book. As DaYog said, BIG SPENDER. lol.
I think I'm coming to terms with the fact that I may never drive again. I am also coming to terms with the fact that I am indeed a coward for this.
And I hate how much I keep talking about my accident, but unfortunately it is THE BIGGEST subject in my world right now. Its long term consequences will probably affect me for years to come (which in itself is quite depressing).
Callibre, I miss you darling, you seem to have been gone FOREVER.
I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. I think we might end up discussing when we plan on having my hip replacement surgery. I am NOT looking forward to that.
I plan on reading all day tomorrow. I have plenty of material. At least 2010 is turning into a good year for me inspiration wise considering how much I have done thus far.
I am tired of people who treat me like shit because I am not who they want me to be. According to them I am stupid and useless. But according to him I'm beautiful and intelligent and he can't stop thinking about me. So who cares about them?
I didn't catch a dirty joke my mom made today until a full minute afterward. That is sad considering that my mom has a tendency to be more naive than me.
Why can't I stop myself from thinking things I don't want to think about? Why do I do this to myself? ALL THE TIME?! I just want to kick myself in the head sometimes except I can't bend that way to do it. :sigh:
I am wearing a short, red, nightshirt with little black scottie dogs on them. The dogs are wearing pink bow ties with black polka dots. I find this amusing.
It is fucking cold here. I wish it was summer. I wish I was anywhere but here and anyone but myself. But how does one change into another?
I dreamt of him for the first time in a long time. And again he broke my heart. I keep telling myself to erase him from my thoughts, from my head. I can't seem to do it. Isn't that sad?
I am tired of people who pity me. I was in a wreck, no big deal. I am missing half of my pelvis, I'll never be able to have children, and my tibia is now a rod, no big deal. I don't want pity. I just want a shoulder to lean on, you know?
I am rambling. I am good at that. I wish it was a happier ramble through the forests of my mind.
I wish that I could fix everyone else's problems. I unfortunately lost my magic wand.
Did I come here alone? Or was I with somebody when I came in? I feel like I need a drink, some vodka straight. I could do it. I am not on any pain relievers. Haven't been since I came home on the 30th of December. I could drink if only I really wanted to. Of course drinking doesn't really cure anything does it?
Why do we grow up? Why do we long to be adults just so we can experience all the heart ache that comes with it? Why do we want what we can't have, what we shouldn't have? Why are we human?
I don't want to be like this.
I miss my father, I was dreaming about him the other night. He made me smile. I haven't seen him since I was 7 years old. Would he even recognize me?
Why did I have to be programmed to believe that I had to be married by now? Why do I feel guilty all the time for being with a man that I love more than my life? What is wrong with being in love?
Why can't I be happy for someone when they say they are getting married? It isn't a contest. I don't have to be first in the wedding races. I defined marriage for myself. That shouldn't be wrong.
I miss him. God, I miss him. And I said I wouldn't talk about him anymore, that I would forget him. I can't. Part of me doesn't want to I think.
Can regret be summed up in a few sentences? I suppose it can. But how do you sum up something that you can't even fathom on your own?
Again I have been rambling, I will stop. I just feel like I need to understand what I never will. And that, more than anything, hurts.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Massive Upload (dA)
* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: Eddie Izzard talk about Evil Giraffes
* Reading: Sebastian
* Drinking: Coke Zero
SO! Since my internet has been offline, I have been writing up a storm (in case you couldn't tell). Including 3 (COUNT THEM THREE!! :dance: ) short stories... Which is really tough for me. I'm trying out some new stuff right now. I have been in a rut and I am trying to expand my outlooks, you know?
Donnie says it will help me grow as an author if I write outside my norm. I know he is right because my teachers used to say the same thing... Only, it is really REALLY hard for me to write outside my comfort zone. So, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE read my stuff and let me know if you like it and what you think needs to be changed or what not.
Peace dudes et dudettes!
Sarai is OUT
* Listening to: Eddie Izzard talk about Evil Giraffes
* Reading: Sebastian
* Drinking: Coke Zero
SO! Since my internet has been offline, I have been writing up a storm (in case you couldn't tell). Including 3 (COUNT THEM THREE!! :dance: ) short stories... Which is really tough for me. I'm trying out some new stuff right now. I have been in a rut and I am trying to expand my outlooks, you know?
Donnie says it will help me grow as an author if I write outside my norm. I know he is right because my teachers used to say the same thing... Only, it is really REALLY hard for me to write outside my comfort zone. So, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE read my stuff and let me know if you like it and what you think needs to be changed or what not.
Peace dudes et dudettes!
Sarai is OUT
Sunday, January 3, 2010
NEED SUGGESTIONS (dA)
* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: Untouched
* Reading: Thirst No. 1
* Eating: Mozarella Bites
* Drinking: Cranberry Juice
Okay, as many of you know, I have a show... one that isn't going quite so well right now since I've been gone. But I am looking for helpful suggestions regarding it.
I would like crazy questions or awkward questions. If you have any you would like to see on the show send them to me, please.
Also, any topics you would like discussed or songs you want to be in the blogs on the Crazy MySpace (www.myspace.com/makingcrazysexy). I would REALLY appreciate it. I'll do controversial material or awkward material or anything that comes to mind.
BTW: If the world was made of pudding what flavor would it be?
So far someone has suggested "stab-you-in-the-face" flavor and "vomit" flavored. I was thinking Pineapple personally. All for now,
Sarai OUT
* Listening to: Untouched
* Reading: Thirst No. 1
* Eating: Mozarella Bites
* Drinking: Cranberry Juice
Okay, as many of you know, I have a show... one that isn't going quite so well right now since I've been gone. But I am looking for helpful suggestions regarding it.
I would like crazy questions or awkward questions. If you have any you would like to see on the show send them to me, please.
Also, any topics you would like discussed or songs you want to be in the blogs on the Crazy MySpace (www.myspace.com/makingcrazysexy). I would REALLY appreciate it. I'll do controversial material or awkward material or anything that comes to mind.
BTW: If the world was made of pudding what flavor would it be?
So far someone has suggested "stab-you-in-the-face" flavor and "vomit" flavored. I was thinking Pineapple personally. All for now,
Sarai OUT
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