Crazy Me

Okay, I totally wrote out an entire blog about my topic of Famous People, that I was going to post today!! BUT, I accidentally left it at home, meaning that I can't post it.

My pictures that were on Ryan's phone have been deleted. *Sigh* I didn't get them off before they got removed. But I have borrowed my step-father's camera and will be posting pictures of my hair soon. Obviously it is not as gloriously colourful now as it was then, but I'm sure that everyone will get over it. Sooner or later.

I seem to have misplaced my brain, so if anyone sees it (It should say "Property of Crazy Girl Sarai Lillie" on it) please SEND IT HOME!! I need it. And not to mention that I'm going absolutely insane here in Indiana.

Almost everyone wants me to stay here, but I don't want to. Then I get the whole situation of "You're running away from your problems". Truth of the matter is that I'm not trying to run away, but I can understand why it seems like that to some people.

No, I would rather not have to deal with all the shit going on here.
Yes, I would love to be back in Oklahoma right now, pretending that life is good even though it isn't.

But I think it says a lot about me that I am here and not there. I think that my being here shows that I am not running away from my problems. I am facing them as best I can. Including the whole deal with my step-father. I have decided not to confront him full on. That would be stupidity on my part. I have decided instead that I will write every thing out in a letter and I will give it to him. I know this isn't the kind of "confrontation" that Fawn wants, but I need to do this my way. Not anyone elses. And my way is to write it out and not cuss him out. In the end I think it will show how mature I am if I don't cuss rather than if I do. And I think in this kind of situation maturity is the better road.

In other news, I'm tired. Literally exhausted. I almost wen to the ER the other night because my asthma is acting up so bad that I can't sleep because I can't breathe. Breathing may be overrated, but I have found that it is vital sometimes.

Well, I have to get back to work, will post pictures sooner or later. Hopefully sooner!! Love you all. KEEP PRAYING FOR ME!!!

Sarai