Before anyone says anything...

Okay, I know that some people on my friends list are going to throw a fit about my latest pictures. There are some that are slightly risque. And yes, I showed a little to much clevage (not on purpose), I'm sorry if these offend you.

Ladies and Gents, all the people on my friends list (whether you read my blogs or not, it doesn't matter), this is IMPORTANT (so read carefully):

1. This is called "MySpace" for a reason. It is MY Space. I will post pictures that I want. I will post as many blogs as I want. I will do what I want, because this is MY Space!!
2. Yes, I'm sorry. I forgot to post a warning on my pictures. Yes, there is some sexual content. If you don't approve, don't go and look at them.
3. I do NOT exist solely to please people. I'm tired of getting trampled on and keeping things to myself because someone doesn't like what I have to say. Well, guess what, Not everyone is going to like everything I do!!! I can't be perfect and I'm tired of trying to be. Accept me as I am or kindly remove yourself from my friends list.
4. Don't preach at me about my pictures or my blogs not being who I am. Not the person you "know". People change over time. And not always for the better. On the whole, I will admit that I cuss a little more and I'm a little more perverted, but LIFE does that to you. Accept it. I'm pretty much the same Sarai that I have been for the past 20 years. I still care about my friends and my family, I still love reading, I still love watching movies and having fun. I still talk to much and giggle to loud and I still giggle-snort. So I say a few more cuss words, I'm 19 (almost 20) I have earned the right to say what I want. So I make a few more dirty jokes than I used to, that doesn't mean that I've lost my "descretion, deceny and dignity" (as one of my friends has so kindly pointed out). If you don't like me now, at my potential worst, then you don't deserve me at my best. Get over it.
5. I do not want to hear anymore complaints about how many blogs I'm posting, or how many pictures I'm uploading, or how many bulletins I'm doing. I have a lot of time on my hands right now, while looking for a job and when I get bored I do those things. If you don't like how many blogs I'm posting, unsubscribe from my blog. If you don't like how many pictures I'm posting, unsubscribe from my updates. If you don't like how many bulletins I'm posting, then delete me as a friend. It comes all down to decisions on your part!! Anymore complaints will be ignored and deleted. I'm done listening to it. I don't complain about how many blogs you are posting, or how many pics you are uploading or how many bulletins you are doing. So don't complain at me.

Now that you've read that, you need to make a decision.
A. Do you still want to be my friend and accept me as is and avoid things that might offend you?
or...
B. Do you want to try and force YOUR opinions and YOUR thoughts down My throat?
Let me say this now, if you are going to try for B, I'll delete you. I have spent my whole life being pushed around and having other people shove their opinions and their thoughts down my throat. I have been kind, I don't shove my views on anyone. My real friends know where I stand on every important issue. Because they cared to find out, not because I shoved my views down their throats. I believe in the freedom to think and believe what I want. You want to know my views and have an actual civilized discussion? Send me a message. Don't care about my opinions and just want to shove them on me? Remove yourself. I won't put up with it anymore. I am not going to be pushed around and shoved in the dirt. I get enough of that from my family. I don't need it from my "friends" too.

And just so everyone knows, I am about to descend into the depths of Hell going back to Indiana. Okay? I'm going back there and will be there, in the midst of all the crap flying between my parents. And my step-father is going to shove me in the middle. I'm going to have to deal with so much more than when I escaped. Not only that, but the past 3 months haven't been all sunshine and rainbows. Fawn has been sick, I have been sick, there have been fights and crying and wondering what we are going to eat because we have run out of food and money. We deserve to have some fun. We are due some good moments before the world turns dark and gloomy again. I am entitled to a few moments of happiness before I head back to Hell. So lay off of me!

Now, a small update: Fawn did NOT have a stroke. Thats the good news. Bad news, the doctors still don't know what is wrong. She is regaining some movement in her left side. Things were really touch and go for a while there. And yes, it was scary. She seems to be doing well right now actually. The doctor believes that because of the curvature of her spine, that it could be pinching a nerve which could explain the numbness. Hopefully that will get figured out soon. Continued prayers are still requested.