Bleh: The Sequel (dA)

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 9, 2008, 12:05 PM

• Mood: Nervous
• Listening to: water flowing
• Reading: what i'm writing
• Watching: the screen
• Playing: "i don't wanna think about Ewan McGregor!"
• Eating: absolutely nothing. And its delicious too.
• Drinking: Dr. Pepper

I warned you that it would come and here it is...

I really have nothing to say, except that mine enemy (boredom) has returned for yet another misadventure in journaling.

This being said, you must excuse any strange/scarring things you might read in this document.

Who on here has seen "Nightwatch" starring Ewan McGregor (Star Wars: The Phantom Menace, Moulin Rouge!), Nick Nolte (I love Trouble, Cape Fear), and the one and only Patricia Arquette (Medium, Holes)? Anyone? Well, I saw most of it last night. Let me tell you, SCARRED FOR LIFE!!!!

Honestly! And it wasn't the fact that I saw all of Ewan McGregor (I've seen that already. Velvet Goldmine, not a good movie!!), or even the fact that he was the nightwatchman in a morgue. But the fact that there was someone raping dead people and framing him for it. And also the fact that someone cut off their own hand (Yes, I've seen SAW, but that doesn't change the freakiness of the act!)

By now, I'm sure some of you are thinking "Sarai, dear, common sense says to change the channel! So you should've done that!" and in reply all I have to say is, I see raped dead people!!! AH!! *screams in terror*. Seriously however, I'm one of those people that will sit through a God-awful movie, because I believe it will get better. I sit with my legs crossed repeating in my head "It has to get better. It can't possibly be as terrible as it seems" Therefore I am continously scarred for life by the movies on the tv.

Now, that is over with.
How are you?!

The delightful art of Tagging... (dA)

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 8, 2008, 3:02 PM

• Mood: Tense
• Listening to: my breathing
• Reading: this tagged thingy
• Watching: the screen
• Playing: "i hate you, you hate me"
• Eating: absolutely nothing. And its delicious too.
• Drinking: I thirst only for poetry.

Seems I was tagged by my lovely ~macys [link]
Now I will do the same, I guess... IDK. being rather new, i didn't even know this existed!

WHEN TAGGING

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 aleatory facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.

So here are my facts now...
1. I hate candy corn
2. I love snakes!
3. I want to be a famous actress
4. I have an autographed photograph of Leonard Nimoy
5. I love reading
6. I love horses!
7. I have asthma
8. and I am very sarcastic.

These people are tagged...
~Pocketface [link]
*rudeboyskunk [link]
*karen5258 [link]
^hellfirediva [link]
~halloweenpumpkin [link]
~Syphon27 [link]
*elainedori [link]
~VisualKeiChic [link]

Bleh! (dA)

Journal Entry: Fri Feb 8, 2008, 1:24 AM

• Mood: Sarcastic
• Listening to: Gackt
• Reading: my poetry
• Watching: the screen
• Playing: "lets not think about him today"
• Eating: absolutely nothing. And its delicious too.
• Drinking: Mona Vie. What the hell is this stuff?!

Ah, yet another journal!! *evil laughter ensues*
You may not know it, but this very moment (whilst you hurry through this journal) I am taking over your mind. Yes, your mind now belongs to moi! Ha!! I WIN!!
Seriously though, *takes a sip of her Mona Vie and promptly gags* "What the HELL?! What is this stuff?!" God, anyway, so I was saying, seriously.
Thats it. Just seriously.
No, jk. Um, I have now forgotten what the hell I was writing a journal for. And now that you've been entertained, I'll attempt to remember.
Give me 5 minutes...................................................



And now that you've sat there for 5 minutes waiting for me to finish typing, I will actually say something intellegient. Monkeys Love Bananas. Its true. Now for another piece of intellegient information.
I am bored (in case you couldn't tell) and therefore I am cranky and sarcastic. Also, I have to work on Friday and am not looking forward to it. Another also, I am supposed to be moving the first week in April and my money situation has depleted to the point that I am both mentally and emotionally frustrated. I want to scream!!! Rip my hair out by the roots and call it a day.
On the other hand, I have finally gotten 2 (count 'em, TWO!) professional acting jobs. Which solves my "acting problem". However, I don't get paid until the job is over. Which isn't until the end of March. Which SUCKS!!! Cause I could use the money NOW!! Not only that, but this lady I was cleaning for, told me today that because of my health issues, she is going to hire someone else. Lets face it people, I only work one day a week for this lady. It is as part time as part time gets. And I'm unable to come this week due to illness and she decides to hire someone else! IS THAT NOT THE HEIGHT OF BULLSHIT?! honestly!
Okay, for the moment I'm done ranting. Beware of Bleh: The Sequel.

Randomness, the dose of the day (dA)

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 5, 2008, 4:06 PM

• Mood: Mortified
• Listening to: Counting Bodies Like Sheep by APerfectCircle
• Reading: Dracula by Bram Stoker
• Watching: House MD
• Drinking: Fruit Punch

I'm in a morbid mood today, for some reason. Therefore, I've decided to give you a random dose of randomness. Because of this, you get to read about moi. Although, you have probably already read it (since I posted it as a deviation as well), you can read it again here. I love randomness and morbidity, here it goes. TA DA!!

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I am quiet. I am loud. I am scared and I am courageous. I am of the best and worst parts of Marilyn Monroe and Edgar Allan Poe. I am dying from the human condition. But I'm not dead yet! I have a soul and a mind. I am filled with pains and joys. Loves and hates. I am destined to be tragic. But that doesn't mean I can't be amazing while I'm here. I have a heart and an imagination. I am of the Earth and people of the Earth. I am made of music and dancing. Light and darkness. I am a contradiction. But that doesn't mean that I can't be one or the other. I have loved and been loved.

I have lived a thousand years in 19. I have seen all there might be to see that is evil in this world. But I'm hanging on for the beauty. I love guns. I hate violence. I love poetry and I hate prejudice. I am of poetry and clear dark oceans that drag you down to the depths of satin waves. I have seen the stars through a child's eyes. I have lived in my skin. And I have known what it was like to be loved. I dream. And I live for the future as I gaze back to my past.

I have been hurt, abused, abandoned and used. But I am not broken. I may be bruised from life's many hardships, but my soul remains unbroken by it. I am invisible and apparent. I can sing and scream and dance. I have thoughts and ideas. I am not just a body, but a soul unchained within a mortal frame. I will never be perfection. I never claim to be brillant or beautiful. But each of us is beautiful in our own way. I am wrong sometimes. And right other times. I have hopes and wants and desires.

I am of the wind, restless and powerful. Just look into my eyes. I am made of the best parts of light and darkness. Within them I am completely safe. I am alive and live is what I intend to do with my life. I am of ice and fire. A dangerous and chaotic marriage of the two. I can be hateful, selfish and impatient. I can also be loving, tender and sweet. I bear the scars of life proudly. They are a part of me and always will be. I'm strange and wild. Calm and sometimes wise. I can show you worlds you didn't know existed. All you have to do is open your eyes!

I am violent and gentle. A strange mixture of course. I am intelligent and dumb. I am of the ocean, lightning and thunder. I am of the wind, the sun and moon, stars and clouds. I am of the atmosphere that surrounds us. Embraced by what can not be seen. Drowning, I have stood in the light of a new born sun. Breathless, I have stood in the courts of the moon and her lovers. I have seen the future and I have known the past. I live for today. I am outspoken and stubborn. Opinionated and sometimes rebellious.

And I am patiently waiting for whomever can love me for all these things and more.

Breaking Free... (dA)

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 4, 2008, 11:58 PM

• Mood: Pleased
• Listening to: Storm by Lifehouse
• Reading: my own poetry :)
• Watching: Prison Break
• Drinking: Lemonade

Today I have uploaded a bunch of my poetry for your viewing pleasure, that is if poetry pleases you! And I am excited to have you view it. I hope that you enjoy it. I'm rather random and strange when it comes to poetry, therefore if you feel confused feel free to send me a note and I will attempt to explain myself to you. Hope that is okay!!

I have nothing interesting to say, therefore I will stop here.
btw, I love Wentworth Miller! (strange, yes. Forgive me and move on!)

Another Day.... (dA)

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 3, 2008, 12:39 AM

• Mood: Gloomy
• Listening to: I.V. by X Japan
• Reading: Northanger Abbey
• Playing: Gaia Online
• Drinking: Pepsi

Another day dawns, as the previous dies.

Currently, where I am, it is 12:37am. I don't know why I choose to include the time.
Super Bowl Sunday is upon me! And so much cleaning, so much writing, so much jewelry, so much photography needs to happen before this day can officially begin.
No sleep tonight. Then again, when do I ever sleep?

Surprising... (dA)

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 30, 2008, 9:26 PM

Ah, little sleep does wonders for the brain. not really! God, I'm tired, but I have uploaded a lot of my poetry and a short story. Enjoy them and leave lots of comments please!

• Mood: Wow!
• Watching: L&O: Criminal Intent

Brand Spanking New! (dA)

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 30, 2008, 3:37 AM

Ha, I am now a member of DeviantArt! Who knew? Lol. As a brand spanking new artist, I hope that people will enjoy my work. Thats all for today. Tomorrow? Who knows, maybe something cooler than this!

• Mood: Joy
• Listening to: Beau Brummel (the movie)
• Watching: Beau Brummel
• Drinking: Lemonade