Oh the Aggravation.

Current mood:drained

Life is so fucking amazing right now!! *sarcasm* See that? That was me being insanely sarcastic, because it is anything but "amazing".

I had to call off my appointment for my job interview, because I still can't find my wallet with my ID and social security card. And you can't get a replacement of either of those things without the other. Imagine my chagrin. I'm going to see if an old school ID will work for ID to get a new social security card, but I seriously doubt it will. So on to trying to get another job where they won't ask to see those until I figure something out. Maybe Kohl's.

Then there is my asthma. I ran out of my inhaler about a week ago and the weather here changes so often that it is wrecking havoc with my sleep and breathing and life in general. Luckily, I'm used to not being able to breathe, so maybe we'll come through that intact.

We are not losing our apartment. Or at least that is what the land-lady says, but she is a very changeable person ("Oh you're fine" to "I'm going to sue you" to "You are model tenants") and one never knows.

Donnie's disability still hasn't come in, which is some what worrisome because we had hoped we would have it by now, considering it's been a month since the hearing.

and lastly, there is the rather big argument that I am currently having with someone. This someone had this to say in their blog:

"Umm just because you would like to believe you know the real me does not mean you do. I am a better person on my own. I can do much better things with my time then waste over worrying about you who did not care or give a flying fuck for things I did and my friend. I love me, and I am always loved no matter what you say or who you say things too. I am me, and nothing is ever going to change that. I was loved before you and I will be loved way after you are out of my life. And please remember you are the one who was thinking of ending the friendship not me."

and to this I would like to say:

I am glad that you are a better person on your own and that you can do much better things with your time than waste it worrying about me. If you think that I never cared or ever gave a flying fuck about you and the things you did, you are dead wrong. If I didn't care then why was I there for you talk to about said friend when they did something that hurt you? Why was I there when a certain someone ditched you, or other certain someones where being mean to you OR another certain someone was bitching you out for no reason? Please explain to me why I wasted my time writing things for you, picking you up so that we could hang out when I was in town and listening and comforting you whenever you had a problem? If I didn't care about you at all, then why would I waste my time like that? And yes, you were loved before me and will always be loved by someone after I'm out of your life. I am happy that you are finally taking charge in something and kicking someone out of your life. I'm sad that it happens to be me. And as for thinking about ending the friendship, yes I was. And still am. Because what you are doing is ridiculous and childish. If I don't know the real you, but you are always You, then how does that make any sense? If I don't know the real you, I would like to know who I know. As you have pointed out, all of this is bullshit. And I am tired of the bullshit. I get enough of it elsewhere, I don't need it in a friendship. I still love you. I will always love you. I don't care if you believe me or not, but it is the truth.

Anyway, I'm going to get off of here and see if I can breathe comfortably enough to go back to sleep as I've had very little. Asthma is a bitch.