*Sigh*

I can't quite remember why I was going to write a blog, all I know is that I feel like posting something, because I haven't really posted much recently... I'm really struggling with some stuff right now, most of you probably couldn't tell (I'm not obvious or anything *sarcasm*). I think I was going to try to post something poetic, but now I don't remember what it was... I was looking through my Gackt folder looking at the comments Pomme posted and sighing to myself, thinking about the way things turn out.

What is it inside us that longs for something better when there is nothing that could be better than what you have? Why are we human? What defines us as being humanity?

Scientists would say that it is the fact that we are able to speak, think intellectually and enjoy sexuality for more than just reproductive purposes. We have feelings and can decide to be evil or good... Is that how we are defined?

Humanity has lost control, has spiraled into the depths and then blames God and other humans for the spiral. Are we human because we blame God for our problems? Are we human because we deny God's very existence because we can't see him or feel him? Are we human because we can express our desires and wants, because we can cry out and be heard?

What defines us? How does one go about defining the undefinable? I just can't seem to understand us... Or myself. I don't understand this heart in my chest. I don't understand why I went from sounding like an intellectual adult to an emo sounding child. It's ridiculous. All of it.

No definitions. No explanations. We are what we are, for good or bad, undefinable and undeniably stupid.