Virginity. To be specfic, Mine.

I confess:
I am a Virgin.

I have never given my body to any man (willingly) and I'm proud to say that I'm turning 20 in 38 days and I've maintained physical purity. (Though, I must say, it has been a rough ride!)

Now hold your applause, I'm not writing this so that you all will praise me. I'm actually writing this because its something I've been thinking about recently. A lot of my friends have been asking me, why? I intend to answer these questions.

1. "Why are you still holding onto it?"
Why not? This is special. I can only give my virginity once. And besides, Fawn says I can't lose my virginity until I"m 25 and I'm only able to lose it to Pata. *giggle* Yes, Fawn apparently only approves of Pata in the case of who to lose my virginity to. (Though I think, my boyfriend might have something to say about that!) Going back to seriousness though, I don't want to just give this away to someone who is going to just throw it away and never appreciate the gift I just gave to them. When the guy comes along that I'm ready to give this to, you will probably know. *blush*

2. "Why are you so picky?"
Once again, why would I want to just give this to someone who doesn't care about me or the gift I just gave them? I care about who I love. I don't want to rush into anything with anyone. I'm waiting for the guy who will appreciate me and my body. I am worth waiting for.

3. "Why not just get the problem taken care of now?"
Since when is virginity a "problem"? When did it become socially unacceptable to be a virgin? What is wrong with wanting to save myself for the man I will want to be with forever? Virginity isn't a curse, it isn't a "problem" and I'm tired of people saying that!
What makes us think (as a country) that it is okay to not be a virgin? Shouldn't we strive for purity? I'm not saying that we should stop having sex all together, sex was created by God for man and woman's pleasure. Sex is a beautiful thing, but recently its gotten over-commercialized and over-used. Now-a-days sex is causal. Maybe thats why my being a virgin is frowned upon?
Another reason would be Hollywood and Social figures like Paris Hilton and Lindsay Lohan. Young women today see these public figures and thinks thats what she should do. Hollywood says Sex = Love. But truth of the matter is Sex does NOT = Love. No matter what Hollywood says.
We have a real problem in this country where 10-12 year old children are having sex, getting pregnant and getting disease because they are looking for "love".
So, why not take care of my "problem"? Because I don't see that I have a problem. I have realized, in my 20 years of life, that I love myself enough to wait. I care about what happens to this body and who I will share it with. I have no problem.

4. "But you have to test drive the car before you buy it!"
I hate it when people say this phrase.
A. I am not a car. I do not need "test driving" before you "buy" me. What if you don't like what I have? You have just cheapened one of the most beautiful things two people can share into something disgusting, in my opinion.
B. How many "cars" have you "test driven" before you got to me?
I hate this, because it cheapens the whole act of two people giving themselves to someone they care about. The phrase reduces me to nothing but a mound of flesh that is to be "tested" and then, possibly, purchased. And I might not even be good enough to be "purchased".
So, using this analogy I give you another.
I have never driven, so I'm going to be just as happy with an old clunker as I would be with a Porsche. I won't know if the Porsche has a smoother ride or if it has leather seats or anything like that. I'll be happy with my old clunker because I haven't driven anything else. The same goes with sex. If I maintain this virginity then I will be happy with whomever it is that I am with. Because I haven't experienced anyone else. And, to me, thats one of the beauties of it. I have nothing to compare it to. I will be content!

If anyone has any questions as to why I am still in this state of celibacy you may write me and I will give you other reasons besides the ones above.