Friday, March 7, 2008

Me, Myself and I (dA)

Journal Entry: Fri Mar 7, 2008, 12:50 AM
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: I Am A Rock by Simon and Garfunkel
  • Watching: the weather
  • Playing: i won't cry game
  • Drinking: soda
I have come to several conclusions recently. IDK what they mean, but they are my truths. You can take them or leave them! :)

1. I was never meant to be a girly girl. Now, most of that is because of circumstance. When you have been through everything I have you build up walls to secure yourself. You either lose the girliness and protect yourself or you flaunt and give up, because you will always be taken advantage of. I chose the first apparently.

2. My destiny/fate, has been there all along, I've just been to silly to notice. My fate is Acting/Writing. And somehow Wentworth Miller is involved.

3. I will probably always be the friend and not the girlfriend. I'm okay with this now. I used to freak about it, but now I'm okay.

4. I love children. I adore them, they are wonderful. But they are not for me. Therefore, whilst you may laugh since throughout my life I have wanted a varying number *between 6-16* I realized I don't want them at all.

5. I can't believe it took me SOOOOO long to finally realize that Vegitarian was the way to go.

6. There are demons in my life. Some are people, some are actual. I do not require your pity on this matter.

7. I am who I am. I can't change it just because someone else doesn't like it. I have to stop trying to!! I will never be perfect enough for some people. I am okay with that.

8. I have been blessed and cursed. It is a blessing, but somedays it definitely feels like a curse. I have to get over that too.

9. I regret a lot of things in my life. I need to stop beating myself up over them.

10. If you are still reading this, you are a pretty good friend, I should keep you! :) Seriously though, I love all of you. And I hope that you can forgive my faults, and journey with me on this crazy ride called life. Destiny is calling, take her hand with me?

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