Staying... (dA)

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 1, 2008, 2:31 PM

* Mood: Distracted
* Listening to: DBSK
* Reading: Paradise Lost by John Milton
* Watching: Prince Caspian (BBC America Version)
* Playing: the "Maintain Balance" game
* Eating: Shredded Wheat
* Drinking: Soda

I didn't know how to go about doing this, but decided it would be best to write a journal here and avoid my MySpace for a few moments...

I'm not moving back to Oklahoma for the time being. In fact, I am going to be going and getting my stuff and moving it back here to Indiana. My roomie is going to be pissed, but I needed to make this decision and I did.

I have realized a few things recently about life... It is a tilt-a-whirl and my balance is shaky. But I need to do what I feel is best for myself in this situation. I don't want to go back to Oklahoma for the time being. I want to explore this relationship I have with the wonderful boyfriend before I decide that it is ending.

I don't want to go back partially because of what is going on there, partially because I feel trapped there and partially because I really do care about the boyfriend and am not ready to relinquish the relationship (as we are both opposed to long distance relationships, ours would end if and when I moved back to Oklahoma).

Oh well, new poem for anyone who cares. I'm off to shower...