Well there was this one boy...

Hey everybody. Long time, no actual talk. So here is an update on your favorite Sarai. (Remember, a dose of Sarai a day keeps the Crabs away. Well, and every other kind of crustacean. Wait... YOU thought I meant the BAD kind of crabs didn't you?! *shakes head* Perverts!)

So to begin with, you may have noticed some new poetry. I have regained a bit of my muse, not much, but some. In fact there was going to be some new poetry today, but I forgot it at home. The past couple of weeks have been hell. I have hardly had time to
breathe, let alone write long blogs, like everyone is used to.

First, I would like to say that I AM moving back to Oklahoma. The date is unknown yet, but it IS happening. Your complaints may be directed towards my posterior.

Truth of the matter is boys and girls, that I just can't stand the drama anymore. I am tired of all the bullshit that you know who has been putting everyone through. I know that sounds like running away and maybe it is, but at this point I could care less. I am tired of the bs and I am unhealthier than I ever have been.

Did you all know that in OK not only was I losing weight, but I hardly ever had to use my inhaler? It's true. I had hardly ANY asthma trouble the few months I was away, but as soon as I got back everything hit hard and HARDER. I am OFFICIALLY out of my inhaler. And guess what lovelies? No insurances means this one can't get anymore of that critical medicine because I can't afford to pay the hundreds of dollars it costs to buy one without insurance.

The other thing is that Donnie has finally agreed to come with. So I'm not going back alone. Part of that is because he loves me, part of it is because he wants out of here too and part of it is that he just flat out adores Fawny (and who doesn't? Don't say it Ryan! lol).

Moving on. I am starting driver's ed soon. March 25th to be exact. I am slightly afraid because the instructor (a 60-something man) can't spell my first name! Even though I spelled it for him 5 times!! Oh well.

Wes is the one who took me to get everything set up. That wasn't fun. But I got a bit of my own back on the way home. Without looking at him I said "You know, I wish that you were doing this out of the kindness of your heart rather than because the court said you had to." And that was ALL I said. I didn't cuss him out or anything else. I think that was enough though, because he was silent the rest of the ride.

However, there is now more bullshit with him and his mother. They apparently don't feel comfortable with the fact that Donnie is living with us. Even though, Wes' mom has only met Donnie once (and he could've melted a Chinese Grandmother's heart with how polite and cordial he was. He even gave her a hug!) and Wes has only met him
twice. They told Mom and I that it wasn't any of our concern when it came to Barry living with Wes (even though Mom and I KNOW Barry and what a creep he is) so we said the same. (Note: Hannah is left unattendend with Barry all the time, Donnie has NEVER been completly alone with Hannah.)

I don't care anymore, really I don't. If he wants to be a pedantic child and a hypocrite, by all means, let him. I could really care less. All I care about is getting out of this situation and trying to LIVE MY LIFE. Is there something wrong with that?

In other news, I would just like to announce to everyone (go ahead and say what you like) that I am Bi-Sexual. I like both Guys and Girls. And, yes, I have a girlfriend. As aforementioned, it is my life and for now I am exploring my options. I am not saying that I will be like this forever (I know my Christian friends are horrified right now), but I have to figure out WHO I am and WHAT I am before I can truly begin to LIVE my life.

Accept me for what I am, because I have always accepted everyone else for who they are. I haven't decided what I shall do with the rest of my life yet, but for now I am going to explore my avenues.

And there is everyone's update. I love you all and hope to hear from everyone soon.

love,
Sarai